Hi my name is Tish and I am a 36 …
Hi my name is Tish and I am a 36 year old married to my high school sweetheart and have two beautiful little girls. I …
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denali 
9:18am, September 10, 2009
I went through heaps of stuff from the rehab this morning and I found the note that I wrote as a journal entry. I apologize if I repeat my self from the previous journal entry but this is what I wanted to write right after the second surg and found out that i was paralyzed.
My life has completely changed over the past week. It took a tragedy for my life to start anew. After the second surg I woke up with no function in my legs. Once an active mother who never sat made to face the possibility of life in a wheel chair.
As odd as it may seem I am glad it all happened. I was forced to come clean about all of the stuff that I hid from myself and others. My husband now knows everything of my panic and anxiety problems and he still loves me. I sit here and cry tears of joy and relief. I have suffered in silence for way to long and tried to spare my family any pain. When I should have let them know from the start that all was not well with me.
I yelled at God so often and was so angry with him. I had no idea why this happened to me. I think I am finally understanding the whys. I have a long way to go yet , but as long as I have my family and friends I think that there is nothing I can not over come.
Thank you for reading this any and all comments are welcome.
Wishing all who read this a day full of sunshine and laughter
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I JUST KNOW YOU WILL COME OUT OF THIS A STRONGER BETTER PERSON. YOU HAVE THE STRENGTH & COURAGE TO DO IT WITH THE HELP OF YOUR FAMILY & FRIENDS!!!!!!! HUGS & PRAYERS!!!
ladylincoln58
Hey Girl,
This was awesome! I am so glad God used this difficult, uncertain period of your life to help you to open up to your family. God is so all about relationships; ours to Him and ours to each other. I can tell that this has strengthened both for you.
We learn so much more during the dark times if we are open to it. I am proud of you as it took courage on your part to decide to do this. I am happy God has blessed you with a joyful outcome.
I hope and pray for your continued recovery.
Many hugs my friend,
Darlene
islagirl
Hey hun, Im so glad you found it , you know something hun, you are truely inspiring. Even when you were in rehab you were so strong inside, you have such a strengh a determination that is truely a blessing. I see improvement in you every single day and it makes me so proud.
Your so special and are also blessed with an amazing family, love always xxx
SilentAngel
Sweetie I had no clue you were paralyzed after surgery but I am glad you are getting stronger and stronger every day and sweetie of course your family would still love you no matter what. I love you sweetie and am glad the day that we became friends
mysticfalls