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April 8, 2008 10:15pm
shittest and hardest month of my life to stop drinking fuckn hell oh well guess it only gets easier from now on .........
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About Me
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About Me
Hello, my name is Daniel i am an alcoholic i am deeply depressed and i am suffer from boarder line schizophrenia and insomnia, i recently quit all drugs, i work in a liquor store and i sell party pills during the weekends to fund my addiction to sex and alcohol...
Hello, my name is Daniel i am an alcoholic i am deeply depressed and i am suffer from boarder line schizophrenia and insomnia, i recently quit all drugs, i work in a liquor store and i sell party pills during the weekends to fund my addiction to sex and alcohol...
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drinking, music, sleeping when i can. i enjoy the little things in like eg, watching the leaves rustle and float around in the wind, long interesting chats and quietly watching movies with people i care about
drinking, music, sleeping when i can. i enjoy the little things in like eg, watching the leaves rustle
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fuck
April 1, 2008 10:48am
life has hit rock bottom, i dont see any reason 2 go on any longer, im thinking of a solution that will last a life time, possibly ending it all …
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today
March 3, 2008 9:05am
it just seems like a constant struggle, but today was.. what i can describe as 'easier' i didn't think about drinking pretty much all …
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Wednesday, February 27, 2008
February 27, 2008 10:08am
today was easier then yesterday, i found that working longer hours and going for a run and having a work out when i got home got me exhausted and …
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Tuesday, February 26, 2008
February 26, 2008 6:42am
another day sober, i was close today to giving in, my friend samy came over and shouted me to the movies after my work, i said i wanted 2 get drunk …
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Lets all be rays of sunshine eh? Hope your having a good one love.
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May you should try and fine a great church and before you even do that ask God for help give him all you worries,I know you probaley saying ya right shes crazy but it works he is always there for us we can talk to him any time and we can even be anger and fuss at him but not cuss he will listen. and getting in a church group could really help.
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HUGS and thanks for the message..catch up as soon as I can..you are ot forgotten..Im just not here on internet much..sorry. Love and Hugs Jo.
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Support Groups
Close Sex / Pornography Addiction
i am addicted to sex, porn and not just normal porn all sorts, really fucked up shit actually bestiality, snuff, rape its all great in my opinion, i cant get enough i need help its taking over my existence.
Treatments
- Cold Turkey Not Working
- its to hard doing it this way i need a suggestion!
- Group Therapy Not Working
- the thought and idea of being surrounded by all these hot nymphomaniacs made me feel like wanting 2 fuck even more
- Rape Counseling Working / Worked
- I suffer from rape because i rape!
Close Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depressionwell i am depressed my life was going great, then my best friend and my gf died in a freak car crash, i havnt been able to get over it sense... it is controlling my life i have turned to drugs and alcohol 2 fight my demons it works for a short time but i need a permanent solution.
Treatments
- Meditation Not Working
- rubbish
- Prozac Somewhat Helpful
- it helps me get threw the day but im still not completely fixed..
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- i just started, i cant tell but i get less headaches now
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- its nice that they care,, but it isn't helping me get over it...
Open Video Game Addiction
i love gaming i am addicted to Kirby's dream land, i enjoy the thrill of sucking in another living being and firing them out as a fireball at an enemy the intense high i get from such events has cost me 3 jobs 2 relationships and i lost my pet dog over it. i went threw the scenario in my head of sucking in my boss and shooting him out as a fireball but i said it out loud and got fired, i am now depressed about it. id kill my self but i wouldn't be able to play Kirby anymore.
Open Insomnia
i sometimes have trouble sleeping, i will just lie there and try to sleep, but fail.. it is fucking annoying not being able to rest i go into a dream like state which i like to call my own dreamworld the longest i was awake without any sleep what so ever was 13days and at the end of it i felt like i was going completely insane, the world was against me and i had come to the conclusion that my friend wanted 2 kill me i saw weird shit had a total loss of reality at the end of the 13days i crashed
Treatments
Open Alcoholism
i am a chronic alcoholic, i was raised in a wealthy family and it was always available, i started drinking with friends when i was 13 i have had my stomach pumped 3 times and almost died due to alcohol poisoning but that still isn't enough for me to quit, i have tried but nothing works i guess i have weak will power... i would love nothing better to drink this 1L of vodka sitting in front of me but im afraid i will never stop if i do.. i need help desperately
Treatments
- 12 Step Program Too Soon to Tell
- just started everything else i have tried doesn't seem to work but im going to really try with this 1 i need to stop before i fuck up my body or even worse, die...
- AA Meetings Somewhat Helpful
- helpful but not good enough my will power is 2 rubbish i crack when put in a situation involving alcohol.
- Cold Turkey Not Working
- it is impossible
- Willpower Not Working
- it is impossible for me to do such a thing as this.
Open Meth Addiction & Recovery
i constantly smoke meth play video games get drunk and have sex, this is my life. i love the INTENSE and amazing rush of smoking 1 gram then playing my favorite game kirby's dream world.
Open Schizophrenia
i was at work, i was talking to a customer then it felt as if he was trying to scan me, im sure he was reading my thoughts trying to unlock a deep dark secret or something, i told him 2 fuck off but luckily i knew him so he didn't care. the same day i heard voices talking about random shit in my mind trying to talk 2 me but it felt as if i couldn't talk back 2 them. they wouldn't shut up for almost an hour i had 2 go on a break. ive seen some weird shit as well eg an alligator in the street
Treatments
- Abilify Somewhat Helpful
- makes me feel slightly more sane.
- Clozaril Not Working
- it just gave me a headache
- Cogentin Not Working
- fuck
- Equetro Not Working
- didn't do anything
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- uplifting trance and such is good for me, it helps me distracts me from the surrounding world i would be lost without it
- Pets Somewhat Helpful
- my dog gets me threw some tough times
Open Shyness
i am a shy person, i dont know why but lately ive become more confident and once you get to know me id like to say im a nice and happy person 2 know :D
Treatments
- Self-esteem Somewhat Helpful
- positive thinking helps me
- Socializing Working / Worked
- yep its working
Open Tooth Grinding
i occasionally grind my teeth but i haven't worn them down or anything yet, i get told to stop by friends and shit all the time but its more of a force of habit sorta thing
Open Sexually Transmitted Diseases - Male
my friend is going threw this issue at the moment and i joined to help support him
