Journal Entry for October 10, 2009
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I am married, since May 1975, to the same wonderful man. I am the mother of one son (1978)with one grandson (1999) and there is nothing more precious than a family that loves and remains close to you. I am a Nurse. I want to help rape survivors...when I am well enough to have something to offer. I believe life is a precious gift ordained by God, and time is limited. I hope to use what is left of my time here in a more positive way.
I am married, since May 1975, to the same wonderful man. I am the mother of one son (1978)with one grandson (1999) and there is nothing more precious than a family that loves and remains close to you. I am a Nurse. I want to help rape survivors...when I am well enough to have something to offer. I believe life is a precious gift ordained by God, and time is limited. I hope to use what is left of my time here in a more positive way.
Reading, drawing, painting, music, bowling, saltwater fishing, roughing-it-style camping, horseback riding, archery, shooting, yes I fair chase hunt...but I eat what I kill. Walking on the beach, laying on the beach, sitting on the beach, thinking about the beach, talking about the beach, writing about the beach, listening to the sound of the waves on the beach, watching the sun set on the beach, watching the sun rise on the beach, looking at the stars from the beach, complaining about high-rises on the beach.
Reading, drawing, painting, music, bowling, saltwater fishing, roughing-it-style camping, horseback riding,
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=D6GlTHQ1A2c
Why are people afraid of the dentist?
PSH I actually liked the dentist :). They decided against taking out my wisdom teeth, but they pulled one.
ANYWHO I have pamy tomorrow so I will check in and tell you whats up
LOVE YOU MOMMMMYYYYYY
sending a hug your way hope everything is going well
Last - for now - I MISS YOU.
Love R
To remind you that you have my love and support.
Chocolate makes the world a better place to be in. Can't bear to think of a world without chocolate.
Progress
50 %
I was gang raped when I was 12 years old by two men and a woman. The attack was extremely violent. I am trying to get through the story in my journal. It takes too much, even after all these years, to write too much at once. My journal is locked to friends only to keep it off the web. I'll try to tell my story there.
Diagnosed today with squamous cell carcinoma. I am hopeful. They said the margins were clear, but I have several other areas of concern - kind of scared about it.
I have a sexual compulsion that began when I was a child. I was violently gang raped when I was 12. My therapist says some of what I now desribe to him is "compulsive" behavior. I admit - I hate that title. My literal diagnosis is "Sexual Compulsivity Disorder with Masochistic Tendencies". I have PTSD from the rape. I work hard to heal. I have only just admitted this is a problem for me.
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