The Value of Honesty
I believed. She came into my life and told words that I believed. I wonder how it feels to be her and know the people on the playground …
I am married, since May 1975, to the same wonderful man. I am the mother of one son (1978)with one grandson (1999) and there is nothing more precious than a family that loves and remains close to you. I am a Nurse. I want to help rape survivors...when I am well enough to have something to offer. I believe life is a precious gift ordained by God, and time is limited. I hope to use what is left of my time here in a more positive way.
I am married, since May 1975, to the same wonderful man. I am the mother of one son (1978)with one grandson (1999) and there is nothing more precious than a family that loves and remains close to you. I am a Nurse. I want to help rape survivors...when I am well enough to have something to offer. I believe life is a precious gift ordained by God, and time is limited. I hope to use what is left of my time here in a more positive way.
Reading, drawing, painting, music, bowling, saltwater fishing, roughing-it-style camping, horseback riding, archery, shooting, yes I fair chase hunt...but I eat what I kill. Walking on the beach, laying on the beach, sitting on the beach, thinking about the beach, talking about the beach, writing about the beach, listening to the sound of the waves on the beach, watching the sun set on the beach, watching the sun rise on the beach, looking at the stars from the beach, complaining about high-rises on the beach.
Reading, drawing, painting, music, bowling, saltwater fishing, roughing-it-style camping, horseback riding,
I believed. She came into my life and told words that I believed. I wonder how it feels to be her and know the people on the playground …
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Just wanted to let you know the words you wrote in my journal meant so very much to me... I responded back to them in my own journal again, I'd love for you to read it. The time you took to do that is really appreciated. Thank you thank you :)
sending a hug your way.
Feel better fast! Love you
For you today!
You are just totally awesome and I thought you should be told that today!
Progress
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I was gang raped when I was 12 years old by two men and a woman. The attack was extremely violent. I am trying to get through the story in my journal. It takes too much, even after all these years, to write too much at once. My journal is locked to friends only to keep it off the web. I'll try to tell my story there.
Diagnosed today with squamous cell carcinoma. I am hopeful. They said the margins were clear, but I have several other areas of concern - kind of scared about it.
I have a sexual compulsion that began when I was a child. I was violently gang raped when I was 12. My therapist says some of what I now desribe to him is "compulsive" behavior. I admit - I hate that title. My literal diagnosis is "Sexual Compulsivity Disorder with Masochistic Tendencies". I have PTSD from the rape. I work hard to heal. I have only just admitted this is a problem for me.