Maranda9's Journal

I canot believe my little guy is 11 months old today. Wow how times flies. When I look at him and he smiles at he I just feel so good about myself. I created him, I carried him in my belly for 9 months and I gave him life. I remember his cry and how handsome he was. I never knew how strong a mothers love was until I had Frankie. I would die for him, I would give him anything he needed. If he needed my heart, my lungs or anything I woudlnt even hesitate, they are his. He is my life and I cannot believe he is growing up so fast.

When he was born he had trouble latching on, but we worked together and didnt give up. I nurse him today and he reaches up and plays with my hair. I smile at him and he smiles back. I know I am doing the right thing for him dispite the negitive comments made by others. I cannot believe we made it this far. He is such a good eater. I used to get annoyed because I felt like I never got a break, I always had to feed him and I never had help. When I look back, I never ment that. I would do it all over again. It is the best.

Frankie is such a cuddle bug. When he sleeps with me at night he curls right up next to me, we fit together like a puzzle, he is part of me and fits so well. Frankie also loves to sleep in the big bed with mommy and daddy. He is a bed hog, stealing covers and space, but ya know what? I wouldnt change it for the world.

My man is walking. I remember when he couldnt do more then cry. How I had to hold him and carry him. He was so tiny and needed me so badly. I remember when he rolled over, when he crawled, and now hes walking! Hes growing up way to fast for me to handle. I hope he needs me forever. He is already so independent... He knows his mommy though, oh boy is he a mamas boy! I mean why not? Moms are like dads...but better lol. Moms know just how to make the perfect meal, how to tie shoes the right way so they dont come untied and how to give the best bear hugs (not too tight and not too light). He is my life!

I am so lucky to have my son. He has kept me going in my darkest moments. I live for him and I succeed for him. He is healthy and happy and I couldnt ask for more.

I already have sooooo many pictures of him, I mean 100's! And there are so many more to come.

Sorry, I just had to vent.