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Open Sexual Abuse

While growing up with a disability, I was having to deal with not only inappropriate touching from my brother, but my oldest sister as well. I also witnessed my dad raping & abusing my mom. There are so many times I wish I could of just ran away, but with my disability I was unable to. I thought getting older things would be better, but I was wrong....

Open GERD & Heartburn

I have lived with GERD & Heartburn most of my life. It had gotten so bad I had to have surgery for it. It ended up having a Nissan Hill Fundalopcation wrap done on my esphagus & then they took that down, and put a Thal, which is a half wrap. I still deal with GERD & Heartburn on occassion. I just try & do the best I can through it.

Treatments

Antacids Somewhat Helpful

I seem to take a lot of tums at times

Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Somewhat Helpful

I mainly have to stay away from spicy foods

Dietary Modification Working / Worked

I drink lots of milk, and that helps quite a bit.

Nexium Working / Worked

It works pretty well

Pepto-Bismol Somewhat Helpful

Raising Bed Position Working / Worked

I raise the bed as far as I can, but it would be easier to raise higher if we had a different bed

Open Gastritis

I have what you would call Gastroparesis, which is a severe form of Gastritis. In April it will be 2 yrs that I had a gastric pacemaker put into my stomach, which has helped tremendously. Things are able to move through my stomach now, and I don't have to go in the hospital as much as I used to. One bad thing that happened in January though, and that was my batteries died, and I ended up in the hospital. I was so sick. They ended up putting a whole new thing in, and now I am feeling better.

Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depression

It seems as if my life is passing me by, and the world is going out without me. I can't seem to get out of this depressing funk, and have it stop controlling me. My fiance really tries to be supportive, but I know it is hard. What should I do?

Treatments

Cymbalta Working / Worked

It did not work, and I turned into a very mean person. It scared the crap out of me.

Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked

I am with the greatest man on earth, and good friends who try to help, and there are times it helps. I just wish it was all the time.

Writing Working / Worked

I would say that writing my thoughts when I am depressed helps, but there are times I don't understand my thoughts enough to write them down. Does that make sense?

Celexa Working / Worked

I think it helps at times but I wonder if it is just wishful thinking.

Ativan Working / Worked

Along with the Citalopram I believe it works but it may not work all the time. Some days are different.

Open Physical & Emotional Abuse

I know how it feels to be physically & emotionally abused. Not only was I abused at times by my mom, my sister, and a man whom I thought I would spend the rest of my life with. I was like a meek person who wouldn't stand up for herself. Pretty pathetic. Finally, I did one thing for me, I got out of that relationship, and moved to ND. Now, I am in a great relationship with a wonderful man. I don't worry about him abusing me, because he knows what I've been through & is trying to help me heal.

Treatments

Abuse Counseling Working / Worked

it worked some of the time

Group Therapy Working / Worked

it worked some of the time

Leave Working / Worked

I ended up moving to ND, and that was the best thing I could ever have done for myself.

Music Working / Worked

I love to listen to music when I am down; it soothes me soul.

Talking Working / Worked

I have a lot of great friends who would be there to lend an ear, or if I just wanted to cry they would lend me a shoulder.

Paxil Working / Worked

It helped off on but not all the time.

Open Anxiety

There are times when we are around a lot of people, I get panic attacks. It got really bad to the point I didn't want to leave the house, but my doctor gave me medication to help, and it does. I feel a lot more at ease now. I am sure in time it will get better, and better.

Treatments

Acupuncture Considering

this is something my fiance & I have talked about getting done. he thinks it may help me, because it helped him. I would definitely be welling to try it.

Ativan Working / Worked

It works very well to calm my nerves.

Positive Thinking Working / Worked

It depends on if I really believe what I am saying. I try having happy thoughts, but when I am in pain, that is a different story.

Celexa Working / Worked

when I take this along with the Lorazepam it really works.

Open Panic Attacks

There are days when I feel anxious, all I want to do is stay home, and hide. I am not sure why that is. I guess I always feel as if people are judging me, and my relationship with my fiance; by thinking what is he doing with her. Other than that, I am good to go.

Treatments

Ativan Working / Worked

Ativan works perfectly for me. It also helps with pain.

Meditation Too Soon to Tell

To be honest, I am not so sure I have the whole meditation down pat yet; we'll see.

Patience Working / Worked

Sometimes, it does take a little patience; not only with myself, but other people as well.

Positive Thinking Working / Worked

It depends if I am in pain, or having a crummy day.

Psychotherapy Working / Worked

I am going the 24th of this month; we'll see if it helps.

Celexa Working / Worked

This works well with the Ativan.

Open Renal Cell Carcinoma (Kidney Cancer)

I have a lot of kidney problems, and one of my kidneys are shaped like a horseshoe. I have been told I have 5 kidney stones, and doctors aren't wanting to do surgery, because I have had so many surgeries, and they don't want to put me through that. The only thing that concerns me is if the kidney stones aren't removed, will they cause further damage? I even had a friend say I could have kidney cancer, and that is not something that crossed my mind. Is there symptoms that I should be aware of?