Journal Entry for March 17, 2008
March 17, 2008 7:11pm
Hello again everyone, well, things are looking up somewhat for me, I'm a little closer to getting moved into my own little shed I now call my …
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About Me
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About Me
I am 66 yrs old, at the present time live with my daughter and her family. Hoping to move soon. I left daily strength several weeks ago because I couldn't handle all the bickering on the boards and the nasty private messages. I was cursed at to many times for stating my opinions rather than backing a few other members up in their opinions. I have a lot of heart problems, have had a couple of strokes but not very debilitating, and I have to live with my daughter and her family due to my lack of finances. I hate it. I have anxiety and panic attacks which for the most part are controlled but I seem to fall apart when they become severe. One of my main problems is loneliness. I don't have any friends my age, all that comes here are my daughter and her husband's age, in their 30's, and I am invisible and voiceless to these ppl. When they do speak to me they change their voice as if they are talking to a child and to me that's disrespectful. My husband died in 1995 and it nearly drove me crazy as I loved him very much. It took me 5 yrs to get over it. I remarried 6 years after my husband, John, died and it was horrible and I didnt really want to get a divorce but finally felt driven to it. My answer to the divorce was to get drunk and I stayed drunk for a year. I still drink when everything overwhelms me. In one way it doesn't help but in one way it does.Then I married the first thing that came along and paid for it dearly for 3 yrs before I divorced him also. I am half white, half Cherokee American Indian. I have one very good friend on here and to be honest I have missed her and missed keeping my journal. There were many days this friend and my journal was the only things that kept me sane as loneliness is eating me alive. So I have returned to see if I can contact her and draw strength from her again and to have a journal to keep my feelings in. And I guess that's about the long and short of it with me.
I am 66 yrs old, at the present time live with my daughter and her family. Hoping to move soon. I left daily strength several weeks ago because I couldn't handle all the bickering on the boards and the nasty private messages. I was cursed at to many times for stating my opinions rather than backing a few other members up in their opinions. I have a lot of heart problems, have had a couple of strokes but not very debilitating, and I have to live with my daughter and her family due to my lack of finances.
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I have many interests, just not the health or money to indulge in them.
I have many interests, just not the health or money to indulge in them.
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Journal Entry for March 11, 2008
March 11, 2008 6:35am
Well, I made it, I'm alive! We had 3 tornadoes hit my town Fri, and my daughter and I were right in the middle of town when thay struck, just one …
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Journal Entry for March 6, 2008
March 6, 2008 3:33pm
Im sorry to those who have come by and I haven't been here. I hurt my knee and it's just not put me in a writing mood. I'm not getting …
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Journal Entry for March 2, 2008
March 2, 2008 3:28pm
Well, I feel pretty good today, just dont know how to change my "face" on my profile to a happy face. I have started moving in my shed and …
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Journal Entry for March 1, 2008
March 1, 2008 10:58am
I didn't write yesterday as I felt so down and out but I have had alot of encouragement from my friends and so I will try to say something …
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Sending a hug your way just because. Hope you are feeling well tonight. Wishing you a wonderful tomorrow with lots of sunshine. Take care. Jan.
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hang in there..im new on here ..just need some one to talk to..64 & a grandma too
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Stopped by to wish you a great evening and a wonderful tomorrow. Hope all is going well for you. Take care. Jan
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That was such a loving thing to do, to have that healing fire fore me. I am blessed and I hope the doc can do something more tomorrow.
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Thank you! I actually took that picture in Alaska last year :)
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Close Fibromyalgia
I have several medical problems with my muscles,nerves and joints. Finally stopped most of the meds except the pain patches and try hot water or heating pads when I get into an attack.
Treatments
- Duragesic Patch Working / Worked
- Helps a lot
- Elavil Working / Worked
- Didn't make a difference one way or the other so I stopped taking them.
- Heat Working / Worked
- Helps some
- Neurontin Working / Worked
- Helpfull
Close COPD & Emphysema
I was diagnosed with Emphysema about 15 yrs ago. I was/am a heavy smoker and so addicted I can't stop.
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Open Anxiety
I've had anxiet attacks since I was 16 yrs old and it's never been treated properly.
Treatments
- Breathing Exercises Not Working
- I get to stressed out to concentrate on breathing
- Meditation Not Working
- To stressed out to control my mind.
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- At times helps
- Remeron Somewhat Helpful
- Doesn't seem to help much but does enough I take it anyway. I've gained 27 lbs on it.
- Xanax Working / Worked
- Works wonders
