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9:50pm, March 20, 2009
Saw the neuro surgeon, did not impress me, but I have to have him do the VNS, and the neurologist I see now is not helping me only hindering my care and so I am seeking another doctor. Lots of changes, even my BF and I are on the rocks so I am seeking my best friend to move in with me. Lots of changes. Even begining to do on line work. Need the financies. Badly. My BF has sucked me dry, and I have had it with his lying and laziness.
Suicidal thoughts are less, but still very focused, so I have support with my medical team, see the GP tonight and Psychiatrist 2 times a month and Therapist 2 times a week, acupuncturist and chiropractor and LMT every 2 weeks. It helps keep me grounded to this planet.
So does DS friends
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Could you please call your pdoc and let him/her know that even though your suicidal thoughts are less that they ARE still very focused? There might be a med tweak your pdoc could do to make you feel better.
You are going through A LOT and do not need the added pressure of that going on inside your head.
I hear your fear about having to give up control. I am not in your shoes medically but as far as my life goes I am having to give up a lot of control, too. In that way, maybe I can say I do understand.
It does sound like you are doing the best thing(s) for you. You are taking really good care of yourself. You know what works and what doesn't and you are willing to make the changes so that you have more of what works in your life.
I am really proud of you.
DS can be amazing, too, can't it? :)
Tamara999
Praying you find your way through the dark times. Thank u for sharing, glad u r seeing the therpist 2xs a week, utilize her/him! I was in therpy for 9 years but it wasnt till I utilized her that I did change for the better. I worked on MYSELF . Prayers & Blessings Love & Hugs Donna ps grateful also for DS
ds13099
I hope your best friend moves in soon. The company will do you good.
tattyhead184