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9:50pm, March 20, 2009
i see alot of pain
all around me
and I also feel the pain
so deep it crusheds me
inside
I am a stranger
with people who come and go
leaving me to wonder
Do they love me so?
my family says they love me
and others say that too
I can trust that people mean it
but i cannot receive it
Feeling all alone
in the world of pills and doc's
feeling all alone
inside the many thoughts
I want to be faith filled
and able to go to school
I want to exercise
in the gym right down the road
but that is not my life
I am mostly stuck in bed
relying on a timer
telling me to take my meds
But I am not a stranger
To all this grief and loss
seems like my whole life
is some kind of loss
The grief sadness and depressions
that come from no more fun
or ability to open
or lift things I need
It makes life so hard I can not seem to see
Seeing that rainbows
can be a part of life too
seeing that the sunshine
comes right after the moon
Knowing that my faith
can really help me through
all the pain of injury
and missing Scotty too
And the many others
that have gone before me
I think of them daily
wishing I could see
each one of them is special
each one of them loved me
And i just want to hug them
and let them see
All the things I did in illness
all the people I have loved
all the people who have hurt me
and still I rose above
I want to see them now
So I can get thru the day
I want to see them now
So I dont slip away
Into pain and meds
operations and doctors bills
not remembering the things they taught me
would be the worst of all
So in this time of remembrance
I just want to ask my friends
to remember all the times with family
for you will never know when it will
end
Comments
"and I also feel the pain
so deep it crusheds me"
I can just relate to this poem 100% sweetie....I have been feeling that pain is crushing me w/ everything going on in life right now...
You are such a TALENTED poetry writer, and I am blessed to get to read everything that you share w/ us....
Beautiful poem, and sad....I cried, yes, sure did.......but it's inspirational sweetie....
You're wonderful.....big hugs..xxxxxxxxxxxxx
brooklynmarie
Obviously written with a lot of feeling and emotion. I can tell through your messages to me that you're a very caring person and deserve all the good things live throws at you. I hope and pray that you'll get over it all to make the rest of your life happy and fulfilling.
tattyhead184
Beautiful, yet sad. I got chills. Isn't it so carthardic to write down your thoughts. You are very good at this. Hugs.
Your Friend,
Tina
ThatMSgirl
That was just wonderful and so heartfelt. I can relate to much and feel for your pain. I'm sorry you have so much deep pain. I love you and always will you are a very dear friend to me. xoxoxo
Jollyk1
I was crying from the truth and from the pain in this beautiful poem you wrote. I am blessed to be able read such heartfelt poetry from your heart and soul. I also feel like you are talking for me and have been able to capture all those elusive words we try to express when asked how we are and how are we feeling. You are such a inspiration to me to try to write my thoughts down to help exerocise them from my soul. I know I will never be able to put it down at eloquently as you do but I feel inspired by your courage. I wish you all the peace and hope that life can bring you, you are indeed a very special person and friend.
mermaid123
So very true. Gentle hugs...
BasketMoon