Anastacia's Journal

On being a whole person.

Colossians 3 v1-17

Christian discipleship requires the whole of ones being.

I often pray to be Jesus’ mouth and actions to other people.

To be salt and light to those people I encounter.

And there in usually lies a conflict, that of the mind and emotions. We are told that through are Christian walk we are to aspire to our minds being renewed, (Romans 12v2) are emotions purified, (Ephesians 4v26) are consciences kept clear, (Acts 24v16) and our wills are to be submitted to God’s will. This can obviously only be done through daily prayer and study as well as a humble heart.

But the battle between mind and emotions rages on!

I consider this battle for me to be the hardest fight of my life.

My mind so desperately wants to submitted to God but my emotions are usually so overcome by fear, something that so obviously is not of God, that I am usually paralysed and of little benefit to Him or me!

I know that God wants me to be a whole human being. I don’t think that God’s best idea for me is to be in fear the whole time.

Today we will be meeting for the first PUSH (Pray Until Something Happens) since summer. Friday was the first Guesta Coffee meeting since the summer too.

We are back into term time activities, the holiday is over. While part of me is very pleased to be back in a routine and able to serve once again (the mind) My emotions are tied with apprehension and fear. On Friday God got me to Guesta Coffee and it went well, but, my emotions wanted nothing to do with it. Today I am excited about serving Jesus again by bringing people together to pray in our house (my mind), but my emotions want to run and hide.

Yet I am encouraged that my mind does want to do these things. There was a time not so long ago when that would not happen. There would be no part of me that wanted to do the out reach things that God has put on my heart to be part of and I know that emotions are often the last part of the human being to change.

I have been thinking a lot lately about John 15, that of Jesus being the true vine. In that passage it says that God will prune the branches (that is parts of me) to bring glory to Him and to make me the person he created me to be. I know that any pruning He does will be to my benefit, and where pruning takes place new growth always follows! Pruning is uncomfortable and at times painful but it is in the long term that the beauty will be birthed.

I believe that God is doing that in me. I believe that He see’s the bigger picture. He has everything in His hand and plan. I choose today to submit to His will, yielding to my mind and His plan and not my fickle and misled emotions.

For the Glory of Jesus!………….Amen.