Journal

Well I went to my boyfriends daughters bbq and I took my 4 hours a week out time to do that.  Well when we got there they had not started so my time was up and my duaghter stayed their and Dennis took me home.  I went to work and Dennis left home at 2 to go back to the bbq and was supposed to pick me up at work at 8p.m.  Well he got drunk (I later learned he has been seeing his ex girlfriend) she wanted to go to the bbq but my daughter was there so she couldn't.  He came home so drunk he almost wrecked my truck.  I took the keys the minute he got in the driveway.  Then he got in his own truck went to the bar and drank more and stalled in blocking the lane of traffic in front of my house.  He is such a lier.  He came in and hit my mother and me so I had to call the police on him.  He is sitting in jail now on a parole hold.  I am hoping that he does not shut this phone off.  If he does I have to sit the next 9 days in jail to finish out my braclet sentenace.  I am so frustrated.  He says this is all my falut.  He takes no responsibility for my feelings or my mothers.  His family thinks I am the bad person for calling the police.  I bet he wouldn't hit his own mother.

Today is another sober day for me.  I think that if I wasn't on this braclet I would be out there bady boyfriend is still using and it's driving me crazy.  I am struggleing at my shit job making min. wage and trying to come up with all of this money and he is out there spending hundreds of dollars on dope.  It really hurts my feelings.  I can't trust him and our relationship is pretty much out the window.  I can do bad on my own.  He gets drunk and then he plays the "phone tag" game where he will not answer the phone to me.  I hate that.  He is so busy 8 hours a day drinking and drugging that he doesn't care about anything elce. He promises me the world and it is just talk.