A dream
March 31, 2008 1:25pm
I had a dream last night. In it a child was blowing soap bubbles, and I was watching. As I watched, I noticed the bubbles, some caught the wind …
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About Me
bluewillow
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About Me
Married 25 years, two adult children. I love outdoor activities; snowmobiles, motorbikes, RVing, fishing etc.I have a strong faith in god, or light of the creator. Lately I've been cooking alot more. I do alot of remodeling as part of my work, and I enjoy that as well. I drank for too many years, and it caused alot of the problems in my life and the lives of my family. Drinking was a big part of the failure of my marriage. Like my daughter said "who wants to be married to a drunk ? " I am determined to remain sober.
Married 25 years, two adult children. I love outdoor activities; snowmobiles, motorbikes, RVing, fishing etc.I have a strong faith in god, or light of the creator. Lately I've been cooking alot more. I do alot of remodeling as part of my work, and I enjoy that as well. I drank for too many years, and it caused alot of the problems in my life and the lives of my family. Drinking was a big part of the failure of my marriage. Like my daughter said "who wants to be married to a drunk ? " I am determined
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Interests
Just about anything outdoors. I don't watch alot of TV, although I like Antiques Roadshow on PBS. I really enjoy riding snowmobiles high in the mountians, the speed and excitement is thrilling for me. I like walking through the woods and getting closer to nature. I quit drinking at the end of 2007, my councelor suggested it, said I was using it to escape reality and hide my pain. Life is easier without using alcohol as a crutch and I don't really miss it. I have been getting in touch with my spirituality more lately. Honesty is very important to me.
Just about anything outdoors. I don't watch alot of TV, although I like Antiques Roadshow on PBS. I really
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smoking
March 27, 2008 7:53pm
I screwed up and smoked a cigarette last night. Oh well, at least it wasn't a drink. I'll just start all over again. With the quitting, I mean
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understanding
March 26, 2008 2:15pm
I went to my weekly counceling sesson yesterday. We pretty much talked about my wife's childhood traumas. My councelor gave me some insight as to …
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Forgiveness
March 18, 2008 7:36pm
I'm letting go of the anger and the feeling of betrayal. Holding onto anger and resentment only brings me down. I'm realizing that we …
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clean cheap thrills
March 9, 2008 7:31pm
I went on a long ride down the river on my snowmobile yesterday. The river runs right through town and is still frozen pretty good, there is …
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thanks for checking on me, I have been doing really good. Working 3 sometimes 4 jobs, I've lost a total of 40 lbs this year. Really trying to change my life around and build more confidence in myself. How r u doing? Thanks again and I will be better at logging on.
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What a cutie! Just love the picture. Good luck to you and yours. Hugs.
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Thats sweet, and thank you. God bless you too.
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Support Groups
Close Infidelity
I found out about my wife having an affair over a year ago and I just can't seem to get over it. She refuses to talk about it, and flatly denys anything happened. I'm in counceling and am working on my own issues. When I ask my wife to come to counceling she refuses saying we can't afford it. My response is we can't afford not too. We will have been married 26 years next month and I really don't want to end our marrage but unless I can get her to open up I'm afraid our marriage is doomed.
Treatments
- Forgiveness Considering
- It is very hard to forgive when she won't accept responsibilty
Close Smoking Addiction & Recovery
I quit several times but always seem to start back up again.
Treatments
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- Worked for 5 yrs then life trama came along and I started back up
Open Alcoholism
I had my last drink dec 28th 2007. I like myself much better without the alcohol in my life. I can relate better to others, and god
Treatments
- AA Meetings Working / Worked
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- Willpower Working / Worked
Open Breakups & Divorce
Finally realized her affairs weren't about me. They were about her and her lack of self esteem. Tired of the emotional abuse. I deserve to be happy.
Treatments
- Forgiveness Working / Worked
- Forgiveness isn't for the one who wronged you it's more for yourself.
- Reading Working / Worked
- Helped me to understand that I'm better off alone than with her.
- Support Groups Working / Worked
- DS is a great support group.
Open Life After Divorce
Being alone is scary after so many years togeather
