im having a heart attack!
May 15, 2008 5:54pm
omg! Tom and Bill Kaulitz are on muchondemand!
i think im having a heart attack i wanna marry Bill i love him sooo much im crying my eyes out …
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MartiniKisses 
6:01pm, April 3, 2009
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About Me
MartiniKisses
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About Me
I AM IN LOVE WITH TOKIO HOTEL! NOT BEING WITH THEM MAKES ME WANT TO DIE! im a student still struggling through school, i have alot of family issues and i really dont have any friends to confide in. i used to cut as my way of escaping reality but i no longer do that. im happy to say that i no longer do that stuff. im still in a little bit of a mess and in need of meds or help. ima bit of a pill popper so iv become completely immune to every single type of over the counter druggs but i cant get on with my day unless i have them. i completely hate myself and i dont see any point in living. i have severe anxiety which makes life so much harder to deal with and its not going to be long before i finally snap.
I AM IN LOVE WITH TOKIO HOTEL! NOT BEING WITH THEM MAKES ME WANT TO DIE! im a student still struggling through school, i have alot of family issues and i really dont have any friends to confide in. i used to cut as my way of escaping reality but i no longer do that. im happy to say that i no longer do that stuff. im still in a little bit of a mess and in need of meds or help. ima bit of a pill popper so iv become completely immune to every single type of over the counter druggs but i cant get on
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Im in love with Bill Kaulitz from Tokio Hotel. they are an amazing band and i couldnt live without them! i love my music im into all kinds its pretty much the only thing that keeps me sane
Im in love with Bill Kaulitz from Tokio Hotel. they are an amazing band and i couldnt live without them!
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Journal Entry for May 15, 2008
May 15, 2008 5:53pm
So lets sing the executioner songwhy cant we all just get alonginspite of all our differencesits starts a laugha warm heartfelt embracenow all we …
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shit cock mother facker ugly pisser face!
April 13, 2008 8:04pm
im dying of lifeiteous!!!
ITS FATAL YOU KNOW!
just kill me now!
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shut up and leave me alone
April 9, 2008 5:44pm
if u dont like me then fine, just leave me the fack alone!
dont expect me to love you all the time
dont expect me to be here waiting for you wen
you …
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these words were never easier for me to say
March 28, 2008 4:05pm
i know im good for something;;
i just havent found it yet
i can live without you but
without i'll be miserable at best
i miss the lips …
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Ray of Sunshine
how are you?
Hug
MARTINA this is soo fucking old!
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havnt been onhere in forever
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Moment of Peace
hope u feel better. i am here for u
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ORGASUM
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im currently suffering from depression and severe social anxiety and i depsperatly need help if i want to see myself graduate high school
Close Bipolar Disorder
umm im in horrible shape and my doctor hasnt made contact with me in over 2 months. i dont understand i thought they wer supposed to helpme with my disorder not egnore me:(
Open Gay & Lesbian Teens
confused
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- Music Working / Worked
- its the only part of my life i can control
Open Depression - Teen
I CANT SAY THIS IS EVER GOING TO GET BETTER; I CANT EVEN THINK OF A TIME WHEN I WAS HAPPY
Treatments
- Art Not Working
- AHH
- Music Not Working
- i love it but it doesnt help me much , it makes me sad or angry
- Pets Working / Worked
- my cat Noodles ismy life; hes the only reason im still around
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- uhmm thats kinda hard when your so paranoid about everything
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- it makes me feel worse to share my feelings with a bunch of strangers
- Talking Not Working
- i have no one i can really talk ot other than my counsellor but i cant really talk about wut i want to
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- the only problem with my writing is that its very inconsistant and i end up writing things then my mother snoops through them andyells at me
Open Migraine Headaches
i have migraines every single day
Treatments
- Aspirin Not Working
- iv become completely ammune cuz i take them too often
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Not Working
- thats just stupid
- Tylenol Not Working
- i take too many and they still dont do nething
Open Anger Management
obviously i have MAJOR anger management isues
Open Stress Management
i cant deal with stress its very ...stressful
