I am back
February 22, 2009 6:01pm
I am happy to say that i am back. I know that all of you were worried about me. And i am so sorry that i couldn't get back to the ds site. …
jamie19
8:07am, December 10, 2008
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About Me
jamie19
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About Me
I am a recovering addict. I have been married to my husband for 11 yrs. Between both of us we have 5 boys, 2 grandsons, and 1 granddaughter. I having bipolar disorder, depression, anxiety, panic attacks, I am a recovering alcoholic/cocaine addict. Been clean and sober since 1985. I just have to take 1 day at a time.
I am a recovering addict. I have been married to my husband for 11 yrs. Between both of us we have 5 boys, 2 grandsons, and 1 granddaughter. I having bipolar disorder, depression, anxiety, panic attacks, I am a recovering alcoholic/cocaine addict. Been clean and sober since 1985. I just have to take 1 day at a time.
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Interests
I like poetry, riding horses, taking long walks, spending time with my family.
I like poetry, riding horses, taking long walks, spending time with my family.
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Journal
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My Heart
December 9, 2008 8:05pm
This heart of mine is such a fragile thing. Like fine porcelain, I could set it on a shelf, but i tend to put it rather in the midst of …
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Nothing is Perfect
December 1, 2008 12:06pm
Nothing is perfect,nothing will be exactly right,but we can enjoy and appreciate what we do have,not what we wish we had. We need to learn to accept …
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Time
November 28, 2008 10:36pm
Most of us are long past the time of going to school,studying,and taking
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Journal Entry for November 27, 2008
November 27, 2008 7:51pm
If your train of thought isn't getting you anywhere,
you are probably on the wrong track.
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Hugbook
Ray of Sunshine
Hi Jamie, I hope this Ray of Sunshine finds you in good health and even better spirits! I was thinking of you and just wanted to give you a Hug!!!! XOX Julia
Ray of Sunshine
I wish us both better days ahead. They say this too will pass but I personally would like to know when.
Rainbow
"I like living. I have sometimes been wildly, despairingly, acutely miserable, racked with sorrow, but through it all I still know quite certainly that just to be alive is a grand thing." ~ Agatha Mary Christie. Thinking of you... and hoping you find something in your day to bring you joy... even the simple fact of being alive should be celebrated. Take care... hugs... xxx
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Flower
A little thought and a little kindness are often worth more than a great deal of money. ~ John Ruskin. Thinking of you my friend... and sending a beautiful bouquet to brighten your day. Take care... xxx
Rainbow
im going to call u now sis lots of love
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Cocaine Addiction & Recovery
I am a recovering alcohol and cocaine addict. I am going 2 meetings, have been clean since 1986. I haven't used since then. Been in detox and rehab. Got into it bcause of stress and abuse. Found out that i had bipolar disorder and the alcohol and drugs didn't help that disorder just made it worse.
Treatments
- Detox Working / Worked
- DETOX WAS HARD. i WAS IN DETOX 4 1 MONTH.TOOK SEIZURES, COULDN'T EAT, DEPRESSION GOT WORSE
- Narcotics Anonymous (NA) Working / Worked
- jUST KNOWING THAT I WASN'T ALONE HELPED A LOT.
- Residential Treatment Center Working / Worked
- BEING AROUND OTHERS THAT HAD THE SAME DISEASE KNOWING THAT THEY KNEW WHAT I WAS GOING THROUGH
Close Alcoholism
I WAS USING COCAINE ALCOHOL AND MORE THAT I WILL DISCUSS LATER. i AM A RECOVERING ADDICT. BEEN CLEAN SINCE1986
Treatments
- 12 Step Program Working / Worked
- JUST DID ALL 12 STEPS SOMETIMES DO THEM EVERYDAY.
- AA Meetings Working / Worked
- DON'T GO LIKE I SHOULD JUST TAKE 1 DAY AT A TIME.
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- DETOXED 4 3 WEEKS
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) DepressionI have had major depression for many yrs. I have a lot of stress in my life always have ever since i was a child. Been married 4 times. 3 times was a nitemares. This time was a blessing. But i still get depressed.
Treatments
- Cymbalta Not Working
- Nausa,confusion at times and can't sleep when i take it. doesnt' control depression
- Support from Friends & Family Working / Worked
- I have the greatest hubby in the world i can talk to him about anything.
- Trazodone Not Working
- The stress overwhelms the medication.
- Writing Working / Worked
- It helps me get my feelings out it would destroy me if i kept them bottled up
Open Agoraphobia & Social Anxiety
I go by Jamie19. I have a problem about going out in public places. I would much rather stay at home,blinds closed,doors locked,and even the phone turned off. This is most of the time. I do go out only when dr appts. or grocery store which is only about 2 min. from my house. Please give me some advice and lots of help. PLEASE!!!!
Open Paranoia
I am usually paranoid most of the time. I always have to check 2-3 time the locks on the door. I worry that something bad is always going to happen. So on and so forth.
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a RelativeMy mother in law was buried a month ago to day and i still need to grieve. But under the circumstances it seems impossible cause my hubby is having a really rough time right now. I don't want to add another burden on him now.
Treatments
- Getting Angry Not Working
- it doesn't change anything
- Poetry Somewhat Helpful
- sometimes it helps cause it is easier to write down how i feel than to talk about it.
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- cause my hubby is in a bad state of mind right now. My mom is here for us but she has throat cancer and is dying herself. The dr says it is just a matter of time.
Open Self-Injury
Whenever i would get stressed and couldn't take anymore i would cut on myself. I worry cause sometimes i still think about it. I feel alone and i don't feel like i can talk to anyone about it.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- it doesn't help often especially when i am in a manic mood or having a rough mood swing.
Open Sexual Abuse
It is so hard to talk about.I have never told anyone yet and it happened when i was just 10 yrs old and i am 48 yrs old now. I am just now getting til i can even think about it again.
Treatments
- Art Too Soon to Tell
