checking in....
in the midst of winter i finally learned that there was in me an invincible summer.
albert camus
i'm typing as fast …
i am a flight attendant by profession but am currently employed as an account executive due to an airline merger that cost all 4, 000 of us with the second airline our jobs. we won our battle and are being called back as i type this. i am also in recovery (again) determined this time to put sobriety ahead of family, job, social life etc. i am the mother of a gorgeous talented eleven year old girl. i am single but not looking and live in a home that faces the bay. it is here i begin to live - one day at a time....
i am a flight attendant by profession but am currently employed as an account executive due to an airline merger that cost all 4, 000 of us with the second airline our jobs. we won our battle and are being called back as i type this. i am also in recovery (again) determined this time to put sobriety ahead of family, job, social life etc. i am the mother of a gorgeous talented eleven year old girl. i am single but not looking and live in a home that faces the bay. it is here i begin to live - one
creative writing, published poet, camping and traveling, voracious reader, perennial student of life
creative writing, published poet, camping and traveling, voracious reader, perennial student of life
in the midst of winter i finally learned that there was in me an invincible summer.
albert camus
i'm typing as fast …
i have debated sharing this God story as- after reading it- you will see. however,for those struggling with the concept of a higher power, it just …
I have solved the riddle
of a three year old girl
gaining enpowerment
simply by dressing my daughter
but now you turn away from …
as i've stated many a time i haven't many friends. too much pain from the too familiar past. i didn't drink back then and so i have no …
; For Scott Smith (enjoy it while you're hacking into my life again)
Saliva - Rest In Pieces: TV Version, Closed ...
i will look with detachment
on signing any contract
because of you
disregard the absurdity of marriage vows
because of you
the ordering of plans
because of you
the making of schedules
because of you
but i will sing hymns of praise
for even the negative
because of you
it was then, only then,
i knew i was strong and would fight
for survival.
and if the morning light
freezes in the east again
and i am homeless
and i am helpless
and i am childless
and i am impovershed
sleeping nowhere with nobody
and i am lonely, hungry, afraid
because of the evil that is you
that is still you
and you tell me again
13 years later
"i was sick back then:"
remember this, little man,
i am never whore to the spirit.
if i disdain posers, entertainers,
liars, cheats, beaters, rapists
because of you
i have learned to doubt a God of mediocrity
i thank you for that
it was in the believing
that i found myself saved
all because of you
it is because of this
i hand you a prayer
but never the music
and the art of my existence.
nor my child, my family, my soul
you will not swallow me
or absorb me under your skin
you will not make me dizzy
with fear or hold me hostage
because of you
the girl i once was has left the buiding
to return no more
oh bastard
how about being alone with me
now
i will see you find respect
for some damn body
then
you can write your own
"because of you" poem
excluding that
i welcome you, surrogate warrior
with your gun to make you
a small man
tiny ,really
appear larger
just like
the side mirror
in my car
come, come and see me
i wait for you
as i've waited for 13 years
patiently
biding my time
growing stronger, more determined
than i knew
i could be
yes, do come for a visit
for old times sake
because of you
but mostly
because of me
through the anguish, the pain, the losses
i survived it all
and now
i can finally find the words,
have the chance,
to scare YOU off.
devon jan. 31 2009
p.s. keep on hacking. more will be revealed
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So glad you're back Devon!
Thanks for your comment, sometimes I wonder if I am making any sense so it is good when someone relates. xx
hey thanks devon...you made me shed a tear,lol.......no i will never give up...thatis not my nature...........
SUPDOC it's me Bobby(GNROSES) nice to check ya,, gotta split though, check ya some other time.
hey friend..just wanted you to know i love you...you are an inspriation to me........
my best friend was just diagnosed with hep c 1a/2b. we think it means he has 2 types of hep c but we are unsure. i have hep b. we are the best of friends and are in this deal together. hoping to get educated here as well as finding support.
i'm a back slider. i've come for support.