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CarysDaniel 
7:59pm, October 27, 2009
Hello everyone, I forgot to thank all of you for all of your congratulatory remarks and all of your loving comments to Kristen’s pictures.
Well, we left the hospital with an apnea monitor. Our pediatrician made the arrangements necessary to have it prescribed so that our insurance would cover it. A lady came by to show us how to use it right before we left home, after all of that we both thought that it’s quite hideous. We just hate the thought of having our little girl hooked up to such a thing, so it looks like we won’t use it.
We had bought the angel care monitor and my husband hooked it up as soon as we got home. Well, it worked well until just last night when apparently it gave a false alarm. That thing sounded off a few times and I swore I almost had a heart attack each time. My husband adjusted the setting and made the monitor more sensitive. Hopefully this will help.
I am such a nervous freak after what I had to witness with Daniel. I just hate to be so scared and so concerned about Kristen’s well being. I took her temperature just because one day during the hospital, one of the nurses had said that her temperature was a little low and that she was cold, so she advised me to warm her up. Sure enough her temperature was once again lower than normal. We are keeping her bundled-up and swaddled with warm blankets until we see her doctor tomorrow.
I am also concerned that she is such a well behaved baby. She only cries a bit when she starts to get hungry and also when I change her diaper. She practically spent the whole day yesterday and the whole night sleeping. I’m scared that this might not be normal. I just hate having to worry like this about every single detail.
Thank you so much for reading. Please pray for me and my own peace of mind.
Comments
Keeping you in my thoughts! You are so strong. I'm just not sure that I'll ever be able to take the leap of faith needed to have another baby.
wandersjewell
I am thinking of you!!
gingerello
Oh Cary, I am so sorry you're filled with so much worry. Parenting is so different after parenting. I'm praying for you mama...
NVDoula
Wow this is sounding similar to us beinging Marissa home. She too was a very well behaved little one. Since it was November, we would put a light flannel receiving blanket on her for sleep. She HATES blankets....that lil booger would kick it right off!
As far as the apnea monitor or even the angel care monitor goes....my fear was the stress the false alarms would cause us. Now that Marissa is approaching 8 months old, I am still a mess....but it seems like with each month that passes the high tension subsides a tiny bit. When Marissa was brand new and even now...if she is looking just a lil too peaceful, we have the tendency to poke at her just to see her move or breathe. She got to the point to where she could sleep past that too, so we REALLY had to flick her foot....she is a very sound sleeper because of being poked at. As time has gone on though....it's almost like she subconsciously knows we are watching and will move or breathe loud for us....
I know it is so easy to say have faith, but really hunny, you must. It's all we really have. tell Nick that it is "his job" to look out for his baby sis, because I really need her to stay with us and grow up. I tell myself that Nick dying was a very sad isolated thing and it won't happen again....this time these lil girls of ours have their big angel brothers up in Heaven looking out for them....they have Angel power behind them. I am here for you...take a breath.....as much as you can just enjoy her!!!!!!!
NickNicksmommykitkat
Wow...I think that Nick's mom said it so well. I am praying for you and your family...that little girl is too precious for words. Congrats on having the faith that you do...it is really all anyone has.
armmom
Hang in there honey. I think everything that is going on is normal. Your just scared and I'm sorry we haev to deal with these fears. Kathy's right have a lil faith! Big hugs
LaylaF
I can only imagine what you must be feeling. I have no words that can make you feel better. The words "paranoid" and "nervous" are your new normal. If you need to check on her 15 times during the night to give yourself a piece of mind, go for it!
Just enjoy your sweet little girl and make the most of every day. Tell her all about her big brother. Remember, we are thinking about you and praying for you.
brandylee82
I can't give you any advice, but take a deep breath. I am sorry that you are feeling this stress. I use angel care pads for my daycare babies and I freaked the first time one of them went off. I thought I was going to faint. It will help though. Keep your head up.
mommyoflily
Saying prayers for you. I would be a nervous wreck too. I don't even want to hold any newborns. My temperature is always low. Try not to worry. I'm sure she's fine. She's so cute.
ckdeedee
I am thinking of you alot and sending prayers your way. I would be nervous too, but just try to not worry and enjoy every minute with her. Her brother is in heaven looking down at her, taking care of her. Daniel sent her to you.
HeathD
Hang in there. We are all thinking and praying for you. I know it is scary. We are due for inducement on Thurs 2 July. Which is going to be just as scary coming home. I know the worry never goes away, but Kristen is a tough cookie and Daniel is watching over her. Lots of hugs.
DiBrown