Kase's Journal

Well, I found a new Doctor , he is a Brain and Spine Specialist, and he found that not only did they put the hardware in my back upside down, but the screws are melting into my back muscles and the fusion never took.

Seven years I have been in this kind of pain, and finally I have a doctor discover that it is not in my mind.  The other doctors made me feel like it was in my mind.

Now the scarey part, I am due for surgery in another two weeks, and I am really really scared.  This doctor was really empathetic and saw that I have been being shoved around. He did not want to advise me as to which way to go. He was not prosurgery or out to make a dollar. He was just doing his job. But he says that if everything goes right, I may loose 40 to 50 percent of my pain. God that alone sounds great. I am in so  much pain that the medicine that they do not even work.

Now, I am relieved to find out that it is not in my mind. All this time I thought that it was in my mind, that is what the doctor's had me to believe. I felt like I was just hurting and that it was in my mind.

This doctor did a mylogram and found a mess as he put it. He said that the fusion never once took. I am scared of the operation, but I am more scared of staying on their medicine the rest of my life. I know that I am doing damage to myself and body. So,  I will jump through hoops just at a sign of relief.

Well, Sorry I have not been on here, it is hard to stay sitting upwards that long, I miss all of you guys, and I pray you are all well.

Lots of Love,

Kacey