miahugsandprayers's Journal

Its been raining all day today and I was going to do my windows today and finish off the garden,well got nothing done lol.

I have been home all day today and fell asleep for a while this afternoon,something I have not done for a long time as been with daughter all day since I come to Ashford.So tes I am at home and I am getting there which means that I am settling down a bit.

You know some times its hard to except what God has given me,I think that s the reason that I have been so unsettaled too.I had a nice flat and was decorated very nice as well as having all the disablity stuff to help me.I always thanked God for my little house as I called it,everyday I would say thankyou Lord for my house.Now I have a bigger and better one and I can,t get used to it,I keep thinking this is all too good for me,the area,the garden,the fields,everything is just so nice.And maybe God has given me something that is not just ok but is all I have ever wanted.And I can,t except that I deserve it,I will never ask for a lot,and can make a home from nothing.But now I have it and I ask myself Why would this happen to me,I don,t need anything fancy or rich just peace of mind a day without pain and to give peaple all the love I can.

Its funny but I was going to buy a cat or get one from a refuge,we came home the other day and sitting right outside my front door was a cat,he was so thin and his fur was knotted up.He had hardly any teeth and what he did have were rotten.So I gave him some chicken to eat and he was finding it hard as his mouth was sore,as I opened the door he ran upstairs and just sat there like as if to say this is my home now.We all laughted and said be carefull what you ask for,I wanted a cat and look what was sent to me lol.