miahugsandprayers's Journal

Had a wonderfull time at church today,and had a good day on the whole.Filled with The Spirit of The Lord and lifted.

Its so sad that I can no longer clap or raise my hands in worship anymore but I know yhat the Lord understands.Now that the nights are getting darker I am starting to get bored and that makes me want to eat.I know that I have put on a few pounds since reaching my goal wieght.And I really do worry about it ,sometimes it borders an obsecion I have always had an eating disorder all my life from being anorixic to binge eating.I know it comes from my early yreas af sexuall abuse,and I am getting over worried about it again.I know I need to pray about it more,the book I was reading that was written by Joyce Meyers was and is great and she knows the problems we face as abused.Funny thing is when I am a bit over I have so much confidence.Our minds are really strange sometimes,we know who is playing with us but still allow it.I don,t know how I got onto this,God must have wanted me to get it out so here it is lol.By the way girls if you read this,keep me in prayer this week going out shopping with the pregnant daughter lol.God Is Good.