lisas14's Journal

I can't believe I'm now 30 weeks along.  Yesterday was the first time I've really felt butterflies when I realized that this baby is coming in 10 weeks and our lives will never be the same again.  Very exciting but also a bit scary....in a good way though.  

My little girl is super active.  I am constantly feeling big kicks and gentle nudges.  As weird as it is, I kind of like when I feel a little knobby foot or hand push my belly out.  I gently push on it and feel her move away.  I am constantly seeing my belly ripple as she is moving about in there.  I am always wondering what the heck she is up to.  

My last OB appt was 2 weeks ago and all went well.  I passed my glucose test (which I was relieved about) and had an u/s.  The good news is that my placenta, which was previously "low-lying" has moved up and I am no longer at risk of placenta previa with a possible c-section.  The baby looked healthy and weighed 2lbs 8oz.  I can't help but think that she's a huge baby.  I guess I'm thinking that because I just can't believe how big my belly is.  My dr says that she is in the 88 percentile but that its  normal at this point of the pregnancy and that she'll probably plateau out at a lower percentile as we get further along.  I had gained 18 lbs to date which isn't too bad.  I just have to be more consistent with getting to the gym and being mindful of what I eat.  In the end I just know that I will have to work hard to get the weight off.  I think I've been pretty good trying not to obsess about it too badly.

My "checklist" is coming along.  The nursery is all painted and I have all of my baby furniture set up. We got our stroller last week and are pretty close to having what we need as far as clothes are concerned.  The next thing I need to do is pick up my car seats and all of the "registry type" items i.e. diaper stuff, bottles, bathing stuff etc.   I am also thinking I may want a co-sleeper that will double as a pack and play.  I need to research that more. 

A girlfriend of mind just asked me today if she could do a little "luncheon" for me.  I am SO uncomfortable with the whole baby shower thing but do recognize that it is important to "celebrate my pregnancy" with my closest friends.  They love me and want to do something for me so I should just be gracious and let them.  The reality though is that there will probably only be like 6 of us having a casual lunch (maybe go shopping afterwards) and I don't want any fuss.  No decorations, no games, no oohhing and awwing over gifts.  I just don't want to be an imposition or obligation for others.  The other thing that I am sensitive to is that 2 of my girlfriends are also going through IF and are now in the midst of treatments. I don't want to be obnoxious and overboard with a big baby shower and frankly...even if they weren't going through IF...I still wouldn't want anything big and splashy.  I just want to make sure that I keep communicating with them and that they know that I still understand their struggle and am here for them.  I am blessed to have a handful of really loving, wonderful girlfriends though and am excited to spend an afternoon with them.  We shall see.

Speaking of my girlfriends...a couple of us were talking about how when some women have children this "switch" is thrown and they are no longer the person they once were.  EVERYTHING is ALL about their baby and being a mom.  We have one girlfriend that had a baby last year and she has completely changed and can no longer relate to things she did before her baby.  I just hope that I am able to keep perspective and remain somewhat "cool"  (lol!).  Especially because I think its important to not completely loose your identity and alienate your friends that don't have kids.  Like many things in life...I think its about balance and I am really determine to remain aware of it and try to accomplish it!