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Blisster 
1:28pm, March 25, 2009
It hasn't been 7 weeks yet since Mike died. Not sure what I expect from myself. But it still sux so bad.
And of course everytime I try to journal someone comes over to check on me.
be back
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I am just broken
I function as best I can
I will never give up
I am heartbroken
I feel my spirit is broken
I am just broken
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Yes, thats how we feel so broken inside, but with time we can mend ourselves. Like a cut, it does take a while to heal, and it may leave a scar but it will get better. Hugs, Alice
I get out of bed every day.
I shower.
I make my bed.
Today I added making my bed daily... before he died, Mike tired so easily yet he defined, or
interpreted napping as not fighting or being weak... so I did not make the bed and I always tried to talk him into laying with me to rest... if I stayed with him, he napped longer.
I miss him.
My goal while he was alive was to make his quality of life the best it could be.
After he died, I focused on just getting through his memorial service.
Now I grieve.
I have alot on my plate... and it still sux... how do I begin to sort the things on that plate of mine.
He would not want me to fret or be the mess I feel inside.
Oh how I miss him.
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You sound terribly heartbroken! I have been struggling since Mom passed too. There are many days I'd like to pull the covers over my head and pretend it's all a bad dream. But we must be strong. Mike would not want you to be miserable~Take Care
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Lynnette, you begin to sort as you are now doing. It is a painful process but you have to go thru the pain to get to the other side. Allow yourself this time to really focus on Mike and get your fun and good times first on your list.
Mike sounds like such a good person and he would want you to be able to get past this but he know it take time. Talk to him in your mind and you will be able to do this.
You are in my daily thoughts,
Love,
Anna
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I just want to say I am so sorry for your loss. This journal entry about making the bed is very close to my heart as I never made the bed while "my" Mike was still here with me. Take care of yourself too, it is so important.
Sending love and blessing your way,
Ree
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Goal Updated
Be glad you have people who care and stop by I have no family here but friends who do syop by Hugs Mari
bobdum
Blisster I am so sorry to hear about Mike. Yes it sucks and will continue to suck for a while because he was and is a part of you. You will always miss him but with time you will discover that you can both miss him and be happy for him and all the other blessings in your life.
nessty
It takes time to get the hurt under control after losing your spouse. I suppose the process in grieving is the same as thereapy. You have to go thru it to heal. Thanks for thinking of me, also. I hope you get a bit stronger every day.
bobbietiml