challenges, inner journeys
March 2, 2009 2:40pm
well, this past winter has seen a few big changes. new years eve was a blast but painful as usual. and now it's …
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aaauuugh 
11:38am, April 29, 2009
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About Me
aaauuugh
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About Me
hi people! i wrote previous message in a fit of desperation during a bad fibro day. better now. i have long blonde hair and blue eyes. i used to be an ameteur singer/guitarist and co=owner of CHAMELEON bookstore. i'm still fighting to keep the bookstore. mike and i have no kids. i go back and forth between cracking jokes about life to saying , basically, aaauuugh. my name is lorraine, but please feel free to call me aaauuugh. my welcome message said dear aaauuugh, welcome! lol loved it!
hi people! i wrote previous message in a fit of desperation during a bad fibro day. better now. i have long blonde hair and blue eyes. i used to be an ameteur singer/guitarist and co=owner of CHAMELEON bookstore. i'm still fighting to keep the bookstore. mike and i have no kids. i go back and forth between cracking jokes about life to saying , basically, aaauuugh. my name is lorraine, but please feel free to call me aaauuugh. my welcome message said dear aaauuugh, welcome! lol loved it!
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Interests
painting when i can, throwing parties at my bookstore in dec. '07, reading,
painting when i can, throwing parties at my bookstore in dec. '07, reading,
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new art altar project
September 16, 2008 11:46am
well, i'm starting a new project. i found an awesome pic of a girl w/sacred heart tattoo who looks like frida kahlo/mona …
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art opening woo hoo
August 30, 2008 11:48am
i had 2 paintings in 'life through art' at the art works in johnstown, a big warehouse here. the first huge room was …
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painful week
August 21, 2008 1:41pm
i'm in so much pain i wish some of you would respond. i know i dont talk deep/analytical like alot of you but i'm really …
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Hugbook
Moment of Peace
How you doing Kid??
Warm thoughts and hugs, Owlxxxxxxxxx
Kiss
Gonna be Daisy La Hoya for Halloween??
Chocolate
more chocolate.
Hug
just because
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Chocolate
i don't know what to say, so hey.
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Support Groups
Close Chronic Pain
i have fibromyalgia which doesnt hurt right now. i do have a 'mild' pinched nerve in my lower neck. the problem: since 2004, i have severe weakness in abdomen, and part of my neck off and on. sitting up, any kind of bending at the middle i get really faint. i was in a wheelchair briefly. weird- i can racewalk for 5-10 nim. but feel faint other times. please help
Treatments
- Chiropractic Adjustment Not Working
- it did nothing. the guy i saw was phasing it out too! waste of $$
- Flexeril Not Working
- didnt notice anything. took in 2005
- Hydrocodone Working / Worked
- lortab works on a lot of it! not my arms though, & i dont take a lot of it
- Lyrica Not Working
- i still hurt half the time, and gained weight. i decreased from 3 to 2xday; may phase out
- Neurontin Not Working
- didnt notice any improvement for fibro
- Clonazepam Too Soon to Tell
- 1 mg at nite. i already sleep well so i dont know why im on it
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- i racewalk 34 times a week for 510 minutes. feels great EXCEPT no improvement to my abdominals
Open Depression
Type: Seasonal Affective Disorderstruggling off and on with deep depressions & fibro & osteoarth. & pinched nerve. winters especially bad
Treatments
- Positive Thinking Not Working
- god, i wish it would stick.
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- never the whole hour, system exhausted & overloaded. with drug & heroin cases?
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- dont know. took for 7 months when dad died. drs. seemed to want me on permanently, weaned off SLOWLY
- Writing Not Working
- i wrote down when i'm crying and i still feel same.
Open Bereavement
Type: Loss of a Parenti loved my father. he was a good man, but he drank. he had a lady friend, but in june 2004, her stalker murdered her. his drinking went downhill. six months later, jan. 2005 in one week he crashed both his cars. second crash killed him. he always told me dont call so much, dont worry about him. and that was the week i didnt call him. i was very ill so i couldnt go. i was executor so i had to bury him by phone. and that's just dad's death. wait till you hear mom's story
Treatments
- Crying Too Soon to Tell
- all the time. too soon to tell if i'll ever stop
- Getting Angry Not Working
- i'm always pissed, so i'm doing my half
- Grief Counseling Not Working
- cant find any. regular counseling was exhausted and overloaded with drug abuse cases
- Helping Others Not Working
- i have fibro and osteoarth., i've been housebound for 2 yrs
- Keeping Busy Not Working
- you can dwell on it while keeping busy
- Music Not Working
- i used to be musician; too arthritic to play. i'm greiving that too
- Prayer Too Soon to Tell
- cant use it as a band aid
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- see 'grief counseling'
- Remembering Not Working
- i'll never forget him
- Support from Friends & Family Not Working
- HA! we're like the manson family. marilyn manson, of course
- Support Groups Too Soon to Tell
- you're it. are you ready for me?
- Talking Not Working
- no one wants to hear heavy crap anymore
Open Nutrition
i have fibromyalgia, severe dystonia in right arm, and mild osteoarthritis
Treatments
- Hydrocodone Working / Worked
- works sometimes
Open Bipolar Disorder
Treatments
- Group Therapy Working / Worked
- didnt work
- Holistic Health Working / Worked
- worked a very little
- Wellbutrin Working / Worked
- worked; weaned off it slowly
Open Dystonia
in the summer of 2000 i lost the use of my arms for a while. i gained strength back, but the fingers in my right hand stiffened gradually into a salute. now, feb. 20009, the fingers on my left hand are doing the same thing.
Treatments
- Baclofen Not Working
- no difference.
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- didnt work. its NOT in my head.
- Mysoline Not Working
- strong epilepsy drug. i was a zombie for 24 hrs.
