emtb9's Journal

So far so good on the pepsi, still pepsi free, and my dr has suggested that I add a glass of cranberry juice a day because of my frequent bladder infections, so as much as I hate to, I did.  I thought I was doing good, was being strong, and then.. i snapped like a twig, I ended up eating some oreos.  Otherwise, I had a good lunch and a good dinner.  I am currently staying at my MIL's watching my brother-n-law, and they were laying on the counter.  I could chalk it up to stress and emotions, (my father-n-law is in the hospital) but that would be a lie, because I simply don't like the man... harsh, I know.. but I don't care.  I simply couldn't fight the urge any longer, so I ended up giving in... I keep telling myself its ok, you slipped, we all do.. but, its not very convincing when I'm the one saying it to myself.  lol

I'm so tired of people saying snide little comments and never saying anything back to them... so, I think I'm going to start telling people exactly what I think... for instance.. you all will just love this..

My MIL and SIL went and bought me some clothes the other day, why they did it, I have no idea, to be nice, I guess.  Well, my MIL was taking the clothes out of the bag and was explaining to me that my SIL had asked her what size does she wear, and my MIL comes back with... I don't know, lets get the biggest size the store carries, maybe it will fit her!   Ouch!  That did absolutely nothing for my self esteem...

I was telling my FIL (who is pretending to be very sick so he can get attention from the family) that my dr told me that I needed to get up and walk around a little bit, to start out slow, then gradually move up, and he told me, call him back and tell him you do walk, from your bedroom to the kitchen and back! 

And what did I do in both cases?  Not a thing.. so, I'm not going to take it anymore.  Yes, I am fat, do I know I am, yes I do, do I like that I am, no, am I trying to do something about it, yes!  Why do people have to be such assholes.. I mean, it would be like me saying to my MIL, you need to go shave your beard off... would that hurt her feelings?  Probably... and my FIL, I could say something along the lines of.. you are laying in a hospital bed, pretending to be much sicker than you are, shitting on yourself, because you are to lazy to get your ass up and go to the bathroom, because you want attention, so just lay there and shut up... yep, I do think the next time they say something to me, its going to be war... cause this bitch ain't taken their shit anymore!