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Close Trichotillomania (Hair Pulling)
Type: Trichotillomania

Well, first let me say I am very happy to have found this site. Unfortunately, trich is not something you want to talk about when you are trying to meet new friends, and I feel very comforted knowing there are so many others out there struggling day to day to rid themselves of this crippling disorder. I have pulled out just about from every part of the body except my head, I guess because I always felt that it would be more noticeable. It started at about the age of 8. I think it was my way of dealing with anxieties and worries. I pulled single eyelash and it felt good, and comforting. From then on, whenever I become bored or stressed I start pulling. I end up feeling even more stressed out. It is a horrible cycle that continues over and over, I don't need to tell you all that, you know what I am going through. I have had many good months, even a couple of good years now and then, but over the past 30 years I have looked pretty bad. I have become a new mother after 13 years of infertility, she was born 3 months early, and the stress of the baby has really brought on my disorder with a vengence. I have never been to the doctor, I have always believed in mind over matter, but after 30 years of this I just don't know if I am strong enough to overcome. I do not want my daughter to witness and feel my anxieties. My greatest fear is that she will develop it also. I sensed my mothers nervouseness at a very young age, she picked her skin for years and eventually diagnosed as a manic depressant. Let's all hope to find it in ourselves to stop the madness!!! I just want to be normal.....