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monkeybird
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About Me
I'm 31. I'm from NJ. I love all kinds of music. Good Charlotte is one of my favorite bands. My boyfriend's name is Nate. We've been together for almost 10 years. My Grandparents were, are, and always will be my HEROS.
I'm 31. I'm from NJ. I love all kinds of music. Good Charlotte is one of my favorite bands. My boyfriend's name is Nate. We've been together for almost 10 years. My Grandparents were, are, and always will be my HEROS.
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Hello friend, I'am doing fine, i've been having some really good day, it's wonderful ! Hope you and Nate are doing good.You are in my thoughts.Sending the love back to you.Hugs and a Prayer.
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Close Bereavement
I was very close to my grandparents. They were more like my parents. Their home was my safe zone, the only place I ever truly felt safe. I lost G-ma in 04, G-pa in 06. I lost myself & on the verge of losing the love of my life, Nate. I've shut everyone out. I try to deal with this on my own. I miss my G-ma & G-pa. I was the last to see them both. I was holding G-ma's hand when she took her last breath. I had just told her that I love her. My life feels empty without them.
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- Crying Somewhat Helpful
- I cry all the time. It helps for the moment then I turn around and there's something else to remind me of them.
- Getting Angry Not Working
- At first it was ok. Now, it only makes things worse. I argue with Nate and yell for no reason. sometimes I yell & don't know why. It's negatively affecting my relationship with Nate. He's my only saving grace. I don't want to lose him.
- Keeping Busy Somewhat Helpful
- Working helped as long as I was busy and had no down time to think. It was tough at times b/c I was at work both times when I was told to "get here, it's time".
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- Music is my way of expression sometimes. It helps in a way that it takes me back to happy days with G-ma & G-pa. It makes me smile. Some songs (the sad ones) make me cry and take me back to watching the pain and suffering. Music is mostly good b/c I control what I listen to.
- Poetry Working / Worked
- Writing in general helps me. I can write my feelings down then go on with what I was doing. Sometimes I throw it away. It was just something I had to get out and be done with it.
- Prayer Working / Worked
- I pray every day all day. It helps to know I have someone to talk to who won't judge me.
- Remembering Working / Worked
- I love to talk about G-ma & G-pa and our happy times and sad ones too. They were are and always will be my world. Speaking of them makes me happy. They always knew what to do or say to cheer me up. Pictures are great too. It's hard at first but I realize that seeing them smile makes me appreciate the time I spent with them and puts a smile on my face:)
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- Nate is really the only true support I have. I am not close to my family. I've tried to be it just doesn't work.
- Talking Working / Worked
- I usually talk to God about it. I talk to G-ma & G-pa all the time. Just b/c I can't pick up the phone doesn't mean I can't talk to them. I call out to them on good and bad days. I know they hear me.
- Time Not Working
- So many people say to give it time, the pain will pass. News flash, The pain never goes away. It may subside for a SHORT time, but it's still there.
Close Healthy Relationships
i've been with nate for almost 10yrs. it's been tough. he cheated and i gave him another chance. it has happened a couple of times. i thought that we were fine but i guess not. he is withdrawn from me. he has anxiety and the doc says he may have depression too. nate has become very mean at times, calling me names, telling me to drop dead and other things that are hurtful. i've tried to be supportive but it's hard. i love nate very much and would do anything for him. i often feel he's using me.
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- Couples Counseling Not Working
- can't afford.
- Patience Somewhat Helpful
- my patience is running out.
- Talking Not Working
- we end up in screaming matches.
- Writing Working / Worked
- it helps to get my feelings out.
Open Anxiety
Hi, my name is Sherry. I personally do not have anxiety. My boyfriend of 10 years has it. He has had it for several years. It's an up and down battle. It has taken a toll on our relationship. I try to be supportive. He yells at me about everything when his anxiety is high. One day he wants to be with me and tells me he doesn't know where he'd be if I wasn't around and the next day he wishes I were gone. Can someone please help me understand this anxiety better? PLEASE!
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