Journal Entry for January 15, 2009
I don't want to be remembered as the girl who died well. I want to be remembered as the girl who lived well. But …
*sigh* I have had my trust betrayed too many times, friends requests will only be accepted once I get to know you.
*sigh* I have had my trust betrayed too many times, friends requests will only be accepted once I get to know you.
Way to much to say...
Way to much to say...
I don't want to be remembered as the girl who died well. I want to be remembered as the girl who lived well. But …
If Robbery Victims Were Treated Like Rape Victims
1.The victim's expensive suit, watch and nice home would be cited as tempting robbers …
I can't stop my random rants any more. I think finding out I was dying was the best thing that ever happened to me. And no. …
Somewhere there is a place with very small rooms that have almost nothing in them. They are very clean and have beds big enough for two ppl …
This is not her house.
She is not in love.
She likes a man, but he just hurts her.
Her only friend is getting married and moving …
I know how you feel. I am in a very dark place right now, and have been for a very long time. I just want to die everyday. It is very hard, and a struggle for me to even keep breathing everyday. I am currently in counseling, due to major depression, and I have a written no harm/suicide contract with her. I have broken the contract before, and I was hospitalized for nine days, because of it. I just had too sign a brand new contract, with her the other day.I only live minute by minute, hour by hour, and second by second everyday. It's hard to think, and feel like that at any given moment, I could kill myself, and be dead and gone, because I just want to giveup, and not live anymore. If you want to talk, I will be here,i guess, if I don't get any worse. I would love to talk to someone, who will listen, and who, understands what I am going through, and who will not judge me.I am scared.
Hope you're okay.
Hope you are doing ok.....XX
I'm worried about you, hun. Big hugs and I hope to hear from you soon.
I was terrified, angry, humiliated, ashamed and so much more all at once. When I talk about it sometimes I get really scared and shake.
I have a counting compulsion, and at times get stuck in mind games. I have repetitive thoughts about people I love actually not loving me and leaving me.
Since I was very young I have faced this. Right now, I'm doing alot better.