angel52's Journal

Hi everyone,I am sorry I have not written or sent any hugs recently,but I am going through a rough time,and I really do not want to bore anyone,but hear goes.

I am going through a rough time,and I feel that the people who are suppose to support you,throw you into the woods,with steak sauce plastered on you so the wolves can have dinner.

I am having an issue at work, that should never have happened,and it appears almost 2 yrs later, and not one Boss has ever ( we had 4 since last year ) brought it to my attention, because if they did it would have been fixed and done. I contacted my Union Officle and it is being worked on. I have all my documentation, which is in my favor. My new Boss has given me no support or help on this matter,nor has any higher ups-to be honest with you they only care about themselves. Funny thing they say if you need any assistance just call HA HA. I work with people who would throw you under the first bus take passes by.

You may say look for another job,well I wish I could. I am with this compay for 24 yrs,and I have never been treated like this before. I kept in contact with my former boss who was the greatest,and he still gives me  support even though he is no longer there.I know I will get through this,but it is like a dark cloud that follows me,and I just want it to be done with.

Every time I try and discuss this issue with my Boss,she give a different excuse why she can not

sit with me. Out of respect for her position I let her know what i am doing her reply " Do what you have to " To be honest with you wheather she realizes it or not this will come back to bite her, she is the head of this facility. At the moment I have a hard time trusting anyone.

With this being said,it brings me to my personal  issues-Trust.

I trust people,but when I am lied to and kept in the dark by people whom I love very much it hurts. I went through a difficult last year, and I thought it was buried and done with, not so.     

The issue of trust was discussed along with not keeping things from me. To me once you break a trust with me It becomes very hard to trust again. Each time I start trusting again,I find out that once again people are not being open and honest,especially people of whom I am relationships with. I am not stupid I know what is going on,so why does this person choose to keep things from me. They want me to be a part of their life only when it benefits them. I try to be supportive and I sometimes do things for others that I am not comfortable with,but I do it because it means alot to them. We at sometimes get selfish,everyone at sometime or another is guilty it,for what ever reason,it is human nature., but to keep doing it knowing how this person feels is another story.

At the moment I am done, I wish that i could disappear. I am a strong person,but there are times it gets overwelming, and I can feel myself getting depressed and mad at the same time.

I see people with issues that are so much worse the mine,and I do thank God I have been blessed with so many things. It just hurts that the ones you are with have to be so secreative,folks  it comes out in the wash at some point,it may not be tomorrow or the next day

and believe me when it does come out,it looks worse then it is. How hard is it, when you care about someone who is in your life,why must it be an issue to be honest and open. I guess i am just having a hard time right now,and it will pass I HOPE,I needed to vent. Right the only one I can trust right now are my children and my Puppy who is the joy of my life. Thank you for your time.