Journal

Well, yesterday at my brother's house went ok.  His new house (he built himself) is beautiful!  His wife is pregnant and due in early April.  My sister lost 125 lbs.  She looks great and now wearing a size 10.  I am still at a 12.  She weighs about 160, I weigh 149.5 lbs.  So I am very frustrated there.  (I know, it is just a number, but I am still a little frustrated.)  She did this in 8 months.  I have lost 16.5 lbs in 1 year.  But I am back on track and hopefully will keep going.  Now, the one good thing:  I was going through my pictures of us on vacation a year ago.  Wow!  I really looked awful!  My face and my butt were huge!  So I noticeably have lost weight.  But I am venting as I am still frustrated.

My sister kind of got an attitude.  Her daughter definitely got an attitude and said we were getting on her mom's case because we were jealous.  My mom was just concerned that she lost so much weight so fast and was worried about her health.  My mom, keep in mind, is 5' tall and weighs 102 lbs.  So where that came from, I don't know.  I guess I should just realize that I will never really be close to my sister.  I am not really close to my brothers for that matter, but I did get a chance to talk with my brother yesterday as he showed me his house.  I spoke with him more in those few hours than I have in over a year.  

Went to the Y this am.  Working on Day 4 of being over 10,000 steps.  Should be there, no problem as I am over 8500 so far.  The Y was dead!  The mall and Target were packed to the gills at 6:15 AM!  No one was working out as everyone was shopping.  It was actually nice for me.  I will do most of my shopping on line.  I have NO patience for finding parking spaces, shopping crowded stores with half empty shelves and waiting in long lines with nasty miserable people!

I didn't eat too bad yesterday.  1900 calories, which is good for Thanksgiving.  I got 19 minutes in on the gazelle and did a 25 minute walk with the dog when I got home.  

Goal for the next few days:  eat clean, eat slower, check my portions, keep exercising!  

Enjoying my day off.  Playing Farmville on FB!  My stepsister got me hooked!  She is down at my Dad's and my stepmom's for Thanksgiving.  Watching the parades.  Paul is hooking up the new tv.  Hopefully, will get my Wii hooked up by end of day.  Going to my brother's for dinner.  Getting some light chores done around the house.  Paul is fit to be tied with all the wires and cords with the new tv.

Hope everyone has a great Thanksgiving!

I have such a love/hate relationship with this time of the year.  Love the Holidays, love the food, love the concept of family.  Love the anticipation.  LOVE LOVE LOVE Christmas music!  I "hate" the food and that so many events center around food, and food is constantly on the tv and commercials.  Ugh!  Sensory overload!  I hate the stress that goes along with this time of the year (for me that includes normal holiday stress and then my job.)  My customers are even more cranky this time of year as they have a daily reminder they lost everything and won't be home for Christmas, or even if they are home, it will never be the same.  Also, those family issues between my brothers, sister and myself always seem to resurface this time of year.  To me, my opinion, they get selfish, self centered, judgemental, snooty.  Maybe they don't change and I just notice it more this time of year beause I keep praying they can get past it all.  I also hate the cold rainy weather.  At least in the Winter with the snow, it is a "crisp" kind of cold that if you layer, you feel warm.  This goes to my bones.  I also HATE that it gets dark so early.  I think that is the worst for me.  Around 4:30pm when it begins to get dark, I want to curl up and take a nap! 

I went to the Y this AM and did 40 minutes (walk only) on the treadmill.  Got up later than I would have liked, but early than I have been.  Will work my way back up to where I was.  Don't want to hurt my knees, etc by pushing too fast to get back to same place.  Need to get back in my healthy routines.  Started documenting food on Fitday again.  I feel better today.  Laura, I completely agree about being tired and not wanting to exercise, and yet the diet and exercise help the energy level.  I KNOW this for me.  So I kicked msyelf to get up out of that bed and get moving!  Drank a bunch of water this AM!  Will most likley have some herbal tea this afternoon.  Ate some high fiber oatmeal for breakfast and my usual coffee.  (I truly am a coffee- aholic.)  Ate a banana today.  Have to go find something else healthy to eat, like some yogurt I think.  

Tomorrow is a blessed office day so far.  With so many people travelling tomorrow, I would hate to be driving tomorrow.  I am going to get up and get to the Y!  I think we will hook up the new tv tonight and get my Wii Fit hooked back up.  Yeah!  I think I am getting Wii Fit Plus for Christmas.  These help me during the evening "blah" times when I need to get in some exercise.   I had not one day last week even close to 10,000 steps!  I am at 7500 so far today.  If I have to go run around the house a bunch of times to hit 10k at 11:55pm, I will do it!