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I have so many things that I go thru every day and sometimes it gets to be so depressing, I try to do whats right and yet it seems so wrong, I need to let it Go and just be me, But who am I? I am a human being who makes mistakes, who sins just like anyone else, I am a Good person who would like to help someone that needs help! I am a Mom, a Grandmother,a Daughter, a Aunt, a Sister, a cousin, I am a person who cares.. But I am also someone who gets hurt, I am someone who has gotten so sick I almost Died, I am a Believer in God, In Jesus who died to Save us and in the Holy Spirit, but I am a Sinner!!! I am Me! and I need to be loved not used, I need my children to say, Hi Mom, How are you? Is there anything I can do for you? or Mom I just wanted you to know that I love you, Thats all I want! Thats all I need from anyone!! I want to feel appreciated Thats all I want, I want to have a stable life with my Children, I want my 20 year old son to stop trying to blackmail me by telling me, either I buy them what ever they need for his family and his In-Laws or I can never see His daugter again so I chose, never to see her again! she's only one year old and I had to let her go or be Blackmailed! Anyway I had to let go of my Son too.. Now thats the hardest thing I have ever done being that he is my Baby Boy.. but maybe someday they will see there ways.. How can these grown up kids expect us to support them and there new families? I never expected my Mom to do anything for me from the age of fifteen when I left home and I never went back home again to live with my parents or expected them to support me and my family.. but nowadays the kids expect us to support not only there new families but there in-laws too. and thats just Stupid!!! I told him you must be on drugs! I am not supporting your in-laws or even you, You left us for that horrible family who are on drugs, are alcoholics and now expect us to support you, your family, and your in-laws! You must have fallen out of a Tree and are mentally unstable! No I will not support them or even you.. So as you can see I feel I was right and yet it hurts... So I have to let go of the hurt, I am sorry If I did wrong but I do not know how to deal with him other than say No! Iwould rather never see my Granddaughter than to be Blackmailed....
Cathy
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Cathy, you did the best thing for your baby son, and just remember God takes care of our needs and takes away are hurts and pain. I know inside you feel horrible other the situation and the quilt trip your son has put onto you, please stick to your guns and let Jesus show you the way, when the time is right your son will look back with regret and with sorrow. That's his problem, not yours my friend. Keep your chin up, Okay! You did a great then for yourself by venting into your Journal to relieve stress, don't whole the stress inside for that will only make you sick, so vent all you want, I care even though I do not come into DS daily. I will check up on you when I do come back in DS. Smile!
Rebeka56
Love and strength to you Cathy. You are a good person and I'm sure you will be rewarded when the time is right.
With you :) Nels
TheLeftHalf
YOUR SON WILL SEE THE TRUTH WHEN THE TIME COME DONT STOP SEING YOU GRANDCHILD OR YOUR SON JUST SAID THE YOU CAN HELP HIM NOW AND YOU AND YOUR HUSBAND NEEDS TO SAVE FOR RETIRMENT SO YOU DONT HAVE TO COME IN YOUR OLD AGE TO ASK HIM FOR HELP
HE WILL NOT LIKE IT BUT ONE DAY HE WILL UNDERSTAD I WISH ALL THE BEST MARY
rayoplata
America doesn't want the kids to grow up....Coddle them tell there 40 ! I know how you feel, I am going through similar myself.As you when I left at 17 it was to take care of myself like a MAN should.God Bless !!!!!!!!!
unclefunk