soulsearcher83's Journal

I had to move home for a few months because I need to save money for rent for school housing and I'm miserable. I hate the job I'm at (home health aid). I hate living with my parents. I want to leave. It's taking everything in me to not get up and leave.
I'm here for as long as I can stand, which might not be more than a month. 2 tops. I don't know how to deal with living at home. No heat and it's winter. I just want to go home to my warm apartment where I can shower and not freeze. I'm thinking about looking for a retail seasonal job where I live instead of doing this. I'm so miserable.

I don't know if I'll get into the radiography program i"m applying to.  I'm getting used to shit not working out for me and I"m losing hope for a nice, normal, financial stable life that I so desperately want.

I feel like I mismanaged my money and got myself into this mess and I don't ever want to be here again.  Today I came home and ate soup, something I never do.  I did it to save money because I don't want to spend an unnecessary dime. Maybe it will help two fold and help me lose weight too.  I go home to my campus apartment this weekend,where I plan on taking a long, hot shower, bundling up under my warm blankets, and searching for seasonal work to get me through so I don't have to stay here and freeze for two months.