JudiB's Journal

Today's a little brighter than my yesterday, I think...

I'm not so full of bitterness nor am I on the brink

Of feeling like I cannot face all of my tomorrows,

I'm not as full of hopelessness nor quite as many sorrows.

I tell myself - I have to make the effort or I'll never

Reach my goal of knowing that I've now lost my forever

That we would spend together, our dreams were not to be...

No longer is it us, instead it's only me.

I have to find a purpose, a brand new way of life

To think of me 'without you', instead of as your wife.

I know that I can do this, I'm sure I'll find a way

To move on and accept it all, I know I will someday.

I think I've come to realize what's keeping me from going

Forward, I've been holding onto what I'm used to knowing...

That you and I, together always facing - come what may,

No longer can we do that, you're gone and I must stay

Alone to do what I must do and learn to find myself,

It's time, for now, to put our precious life up on the shelf.

This doesn't mean forgetting, for that I'll never do,

I couldn't if I wanted to - my heart belongs to you.

But if I'm to succeed into a future, I can see...

I have to let go of the past to be what I must be,

To find the little things I need to be content until

I'm with you once again and I promise you I will!