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JudiB 
The dark cloud is not quite so dark anymore but the sun hasn't come back out, so to speak, in my heart yet. But I keep hoping... and while I wait, I think and then I write, and this is what came out today. It helps me and I'm hoping maybe it helps someone else along the way.
How many times can I say that I love you?
How many times can I wish you were here?
How can it be that you're no longer with me?
It seems like forever, my dear!
How many times can I hear the phone ring
Wishing to hear your sweet voice?
Oh, if but only, you walked through the door
How, so very much, I'd rejoice!
What I would give to feel your strong arms
Holding me close just once more,
Loving you just for the moment we'd have
With all of my heart, as before.
How many days since you've been gone
Has morning arrived with such sorrow;
Knowing that never again will we have
Each other or our tomorrow?
How will I get through the rest of my life
Without all of the love that we shared?
How will my heart go on beating
When it's broken and can't be repaired?
How does one get past or through such a pain
Of a loss that's so deep I can't hide?
The tears of my sadness continue to fall
I can't turn them off, though I've tried.
How long does it take for the healing to start
Of a life without you here to be
The wonderful man that I married and loved
Who was all of the world to me?
A step at a time I pray and I hope
That one day will come, I'll be free
Of the past, as it was, to a future that holds
A new life and promise to be...
As full as it can without you by my side,
My heart filled with memories of gold
Tucked in my heart warmly forever
Where they'll always be to behold.
I'll carry them close and never let go
Of the best thing in life that I've had.
I promise one day I will smile again
And try very hard not to be sad.
There's lots to remember of happier times;
I just need to accept that you're gone.
And though it is tough, I know that I must
And will find a way to move on.
I know that you're close, for so many times
I feel you and hear what you say;
Your words, always a comfort to me,
Even to this very day.
As long as I know that our love is still real
It will give me the strength to do all
That I can to go on without you, my love
Even though I might stumble and fall.
I know you'll be there, your hand holding on
To mine as you guide me and then
I'll know that I can move forward once more
To begin living life once again.
Love you, sweetheart, forever and always! 
Comments
Judi, this is beautiful! You're so good at expressing what so many of us feel, I envy your talent. You've expressed your pain and lonliness so clearly - what we all feel - but this poem also has such hope in it, it's inspiring.
I think, My Friend, that you have no idea how much strength some of us here on DS draw from you!
jd1982
Thank you for that wonderful piece. You are a blessing.
Claudy
Yes Judi, You could be speaking for us all. You do write such beautiful poems from the heart and yes you are so inspiring. I love reading your pieces. Hold onto those memories of gold as I know you will, even though they make you sad now at least no-one can ever take them away from you, and when we feel better our memories will live on in our hearts where our loved one's are forever joined together. I find comfort in knowing that I have known true love and feel so grateful for that gift and even though it was snatched away much to soon, half a life time with them is so much more than some people ever get to experience. Lots of love x
shazz75
You're all so very sweet and I appreciate each and every one of you. You are all a very big part of my healing and for that I could never express enough gratitude. When I wrote this, it was to help myself but I had a very special friend in mind that I've come to care alot about but have not been able to help as much as I'd like. I know in helping others you are also helping yourself. I'm hoping that someone will see something hopeful in what I wrote and can apply it to their situation and eventually find a way to their own healing and being able to move on just a little. And I love writing to my dear husband, he was my life, my heart, my soul, just like all of your husbands were to all of you. If it helps in any way to share these thoughts with all of you then that blesses my heart. Love to all of you! Judi
JudiB
Judi you are truly a blessing to all of us. The talent you have for writing is amazing. You do put into words how we are all feeling. This poem really touched my heart, thank you, love and prayers, Pam
pstrevels
God Blessed you with the ability to express your feelings in writing them down on paper. I am so amazed every time I read something you have written. You have been such a blessing to me , I love Ya, Lori
LKim