GotMySwaggaBack's Journal

Its been almost six years since you died, a river full of tears I've cried. You held my hand and watched me live and grow. I held your hand and watched you die and go.

When I was young and helpless you were there for me I knew. As I watched you shut down I felt helpless, unable to help you through. I heard your cries of fear and couldn't help but shed a tear, it didn't seem fair, it seemed more than anyone could bear. 

A life of pain you had to sustain, it seemed like all you overcame was in vain. Why one should suffer so much is insane.The struggle the strain of all you fought to regain seemed to go down the drain.

Its been almost six years since you died, a river full of tears I've cried. You held my hand and watched me live and grow. I held your hand and watched you die and go.

I had two fears it's true, a fear for you and what you were going through. A fear for me as I faced life without you. Eyes red with tears for me and you, I didn't know if the sky would ever again be blue. I broke and cried its true when I realized I couldn't rescue you. 

With each passing year, your voice I still hear, and even now still shed a tear. It's clear in my heart you are still near. Dressed in your heavenly gear, no more pain, no more fear, singing loud and clear.

Time has passed and now I know your face shines with a heavenly glow. In your own way still watching me live, learn and grow. The passage of my hearts pain is slow, but it was time for you to go, I know.

Today for you I wore pink and hoped it might make another think, before another life is lost with just a blink. I don't want another son to in depression sink before taking up his uniform of pink. Not another life lost, too many have already paid the cost.

I am staying strong the way you would want me too, I am wearing pink to honor you. Walking proud and tall knowing all you went through. You have left this life it's true but your body I know God did renew.

Your life, your pain was not in vain, it all gave me the strength to maintain and sustain even in the rain. 

Its been almost six years since you died, a river full of tears I've cried. You held my hand and watched me live and grow. Even though I held your hand and watched you go, I rejoice because you are in heaven I know.

I love you mama.