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tiareflower 
7:24pm, November 1, 2009
Hi everyone, sorry for not writing. Its been a slight rollercoaster for me.
What can I say that has happened since I have last written?
alot actually. Especially in terms of my mental growth.
Last couple of weeks have actually been good. I've started sleeping a little better, eating a little better. Found out why I was feeling so sick all the time. The doctor says I have a middle ear virus which affect my balance and made me feel motion sickness all the bloody time. So now I have been given some medication to help the nausea which has made life a little easier for me.
I made a huge accomplishment by going to the city (melbourne city for me) a whole day with tafe. I think from me going to sleeping and spending 24/7 in my room for a long time then suddenly doing this was a good accomplishment. I was nervous at first at seeing my tafe friends because i hadnt seen them in like 2 months. Some were very shocked at seeing me. Of course I look alot more pale and about 20kgs less.
Luckily all of them didnt ask m too much after i said i was going through some personal things which was why i could be at tafe.
Mentally, my mum, sister and best friend all mentioned that I have been making progress and getting slowly better.
Now that means a good day is when I get out of bed, make the bed, have a shower and manage to eat and spend some time out of my room. But there are days where I am laughing a bit more, being more myself.
I just had an awesome weekend where I went to Wrestling (have I mentioned that I do pro wrestling with my best friend? like WWE wrestling)
It would be the second time I would ever be making an appearance as part of the show and I got to valet for my best friend for both of her matches (first a singles match second was a intergender tag team match) I was nervous as it would be the first time me being a heel (basically a 'heel' is the baddie and a 'face' is a goodie). But I ended up having the most awesome time.
They owners of the wrestling show came up to me after the show to me and my best friend and they all said they were impressed with how i went considering it was the second time ever I would be valeting and they hoped I would be there next show!
During that day/night I finally felt almost back to my old social self.
I've even started drawing again.
Maybe there's still hope for me just yet....
Comments
Hey hun, really proud of you. you are making progress, you really are. yeah you was not doing much and now you are doing so much. wow wrestling thats really cool, well done on going to Melbourne, i have been checking your page to see how you are doing. glad you wrote what was going on in your life. be proud of yourself. dont look too much into the past of how things are, concentrate on the now......HUGE HUGSSSSSSSS........
ShazzerInc