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Isn't it funny how easily forget the difference in pain levels between Winter and Summer. I now know why Abbe had to move to Vegas...her FMS. I still will take a little bit of discomfort or a lot, to stay in God's Country. My one dream when growing up was to live in the mountains away from all the zillions of people. I did a lot of reading today..got up late, ate brunch, and watched CNN as they chatted back and forth about the candidates and what a mess Clinton and Obama are making of these primaries. I will be so glad when it's all over and I know I've got lots of company. Norm won't even watch the news, it drives him bonkers. Speaking of Norm. He left this a.m. early ...about 7am. to see Dave and Tyler. I didn't get to sleep until about 5a.m. I often wish I was on Ambien again, but after the coma last Oct. I can certainly understand why he wouldn't want to give me an rx for it. Norm said he got into it with the geese, funny stories. Laura is in Arizona for another month training their horses. I guess she's really enjoying it, but I'm sure Dave and Tyler have got to miss her and Sean. I can't believe that Sean will be graduating from HS this year. Norm says he's planning on going to Modesto JC next, but hasn't decided what he wants to be yet. He did tell me at Christmas time, but I think he may find "shoeing horses" for a living not all that lucrative...but what do I know! I "skunked" Norm in 3 games of Mahjongg today..I love it! We so harrass each other when the other does or doesn't win, one would think we really cared..it's fun giving each other a bad time. It got up to almost 80 today. It didn't stay there a long time with the breeze coming up, so from 2pm on it slowly worked itself down to 70 degrees again.
I actually thought about exercising earlier today, then promptly forget it. Since it's so hard to get to sleep after exercising, I thought I'd better wait until tomorrow..after we go to see Mom. That's not good, starting a new goal online then not doing it the first day. By all rights I should have started last week, I exercised 6 out of 7 days, a total of 36 miles. I spent an hr. yesterday doing Hathya Yoga. It really does strengthen your muscles and help with balance. I also am meditating more often, it definitely helps me stay calmer. I think so many of us with FMS tend to be such people pleasers. We've had such histories with dysfunctional families, but then who doesn't?
I need to go read the mail and watch a DVD. Hopefully, I'll get to sleep earlier than 5am tomorrow or I won't feel up to going to see Mom. As I look out at the beautiful oak trees I can't help but thank God for giving me the two things I wanted more than anything else in life..having my three children healthy, and to live in the mountains. I only wish I lived closer to the smaller grandchildren...I would love to watch them grow up..I feel like I'm missing so much. But, I don't think Norm would particularly enjoy living in Utah..I'm not so sure I would either. It would be nice to feel good enough to go back and see them though.
That's it for tonight...gosh..I haven't done journaling in months..it's nice!
