Butterflylearner's Journal

Hey ~

I dont know what to really say. I am extremely sad today. My sister just seems to get date after date and I can not even get 1 in three years. I am excited that my parents are paying for me to go back to school to be a CNA. I am not excited that I have to live with them. I am pretty lonely, I litterally have no friends here so it is not like i can get out of the house for a nice nite out or anything. I just want to be happy agian. It seems like forever since i have been truely happy. I am not sure how much longer i can hold on. And on top of that my mom just called me downstairs and asked if i was still talking to one of my ex lovers that i still sort of love but that they hate. Since I knew she already knew I told her the truth the first time in a long time. Said if i didnt stop talking to him by the first that i will be kicked out no car or anything and my parents will disown me perminately and i will have to tell my dad.