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ImpulsiveREtardednes 
12:41pm Thursday
Hmmmmm. Here's a thought I was just thinking. If I change my profile "status" does that mean that things haven't changed?? If my status face is Green does that mean that everything's fine? If my status face remains yellow...does that mean that I'm not down in the dumps?? If I were to tell you that things don't seem to be getting better....but I never tell you that they're getting worst...does that mean that they're the same?? If I'm too scared to get help because I hate doctors and hospitals paranoi me...does it mean I may not survive??
I have to point out that just because my face shows one thing on here it doesn't mean that all is well. Just like some members who keep their face status on one colour...that doesn't ensure that they're always in that mood. I know that for a fact. Cause I've asked some of them. I have a friend who is very much one of those people...but I can always tell when something is up with her...whether she shares it right away or not. I'm glad to see that a status on a profile is all it takes to know if someone's alright. I have many friends on here....who's status NEVER changes...they're always Red. Does that mean that they NEVER have good days?? I'm sure some of their days are better then others.
As of lately...I've been forgetting a lot of things...I've been trying to remember why I was talking about a specific topic with one of my friends...and if it was actually me saying it. I was trying to remember what the topic was to begin with. There have been numerous times...where I'll have just said something or done something and instantly forget if I had actually said or done it at all. I will lose track of a discussion to the point where I need someone to remind me what I was talking about. And then I get obsessive thoughts about one certain thing...something that isn't good. This has all been within the last couple of days. Now...I know I don't forget things that easily...if you have ever met ANY of my friends(which I know you haven't) they'd all vouch that I'd be the one who'll remember anything and everything. My DS face is yellow....inside me is red....my RL face...is green. But what does any of this really tell anyone??? Honestly?? What does it say??
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i dont think the DS faces are versatile enough. For me, the red face is a complete underestimation, and i think there should be a 'same as usual - still rubbish' colour - maybe lurid / sea sick purple?
rosie22
That we are all fucked up? That most people are anyway..... our moods are fluid and unstable, so being 'one' thing has a time limit. Plus, how about the times we feel depressed, but kinda up too, which face would that be? Or maybe it is about kidding ourselves about how we feel, and then we aren't quite sure? I have a BP brain, so defining how I am feeling, or monitoring my moods, can be confusing and hard work. And I'm not even sure if I am answering your questions now, or whether my brain has gone off on another tangent...
rubyblue
Thank you for asking the questions I've been thinking. I agree with rosie, the faces are not veratile enough. I know I leave mine one color for very long even if i have an up day. My mood will change more than once in a day. Does that mean I need to log on and change the face several times in one day? About never changing the face; I think we often don't even realise it hasn't been changed in forever.
About forgeting. I think it's a way of coping when we have had too much going on and are trying to hold too much together. We just can't cope with one more thing so we forget.
If you hate doctors and hospitals and don't get help- will you survive? I think you can, yes. But it's a lot easier with someone to help you like a doc or a counselor. Meds may scare you too, but they are useful.
I'm glad you're asking the questions. You are still functioning and you are thinking. That's a good thing. I'm sorry about the down days. But please keep journalling and getting help. You will survive. Use whatever helps you to do that.
Love, Hope
hope3378
i understand. sometimes i present a face that doesnt fully represent how i feel. and you hate doctors? that is fine i dont trust them either. but dont overwhelm yourself with these questions, there not fullfilling to your life, they just bring you down. and you dont need that. think of what your dreams are? what is going to happen tomorrow? how are your friends doing? what am i going to do that is fun and exciting today? try to alter your point of view if its possible, you will do it. i hope things turn out better for you. have a wonderful day. peace, love, and happiness.
BisexualBuddhist21
Hey does it matter what the face looks like? We're all on here for a reason, obviously we all have good and bad and very bad days, but Ikeep my face like this until every day is good or at least peaceful...
stefaniamia
I hopes you feel better because I don't want you to be red inside.
Kuro
When ever I write in my journal I think about how I am feeling before I save it. Now that my meds are under control I am about the same every day. But I understand that not everyone changes theirs because they forget or just don't want to express it to any one yet. But I do agree, I think we need more choices. Thanks for bringing the subject up. :) Hugs
Survivable
It tells you that you care. No matter what color you are friend you are still a caring person and that's what counts. Love Ramona xoxoxo
Pulpit
I guess we don't really know how one feels B/C one changes each minute of the day to a small degree.
ONEPLANET07
Hope u start feeling better soon
thinking off u
hugs hunni xx
AFC09