freakyfest's Journal

 3:30

Well I managed to drag my sorry but into the shower. I spent a couple of hours trying to convince myself I needed one. But now my shoulders and neck are killing me. So far the change in pain medication hasn't done a frigging thing accept make me really frigging out of it. This SUCKS I am so frusterated, I hate days like this. My husband ends up doing all the work if he does anything at all and I do nothing but feel guilty. The doctor gave me compliments yesterday about how most people who have my probs just give up and do nothing. Ya but I have days where I can't do anything. I wish I could just go to sleep just a few hours and just forget everything. Sometimes you wish you could just go to heaven so you would be perfect and not be in any more pain. How much longer am I going to be this way? Forever? What is the point in trying when nothing seems to work.