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12:00pm, August 28, 2009
My husband just looked at me and said tomorrow is your birthday and I can't buy you anything. I have my f--- life. What do I say to that. I mean I am somebody who likes to have a big deal made out of her birthday. I can't say anything to that. I mean how is that supposed to make me feel. what I should have said was that is ok honey don't worry about it. But I couldn't and didn't. On the bright side I got money in the mail from my grandmother it was ten dollars. Not a lot but it is the thought that counts. I may use it to go get more jewlery making stuff. Nobody has asked me what I want for my birthday because we are all broke. OH well you win some you loose some. My back and right leg are really bothering me not sure why. But they are. Well I know why but I mean is theresomething else wrong? I have my aquatic therapy tomorrow she had better be nice to me because if not I will let her have it. I know not a good christian attitude. I should pray about it. Just been in a bad mood this morning. I think it is pain related. maybe that or something else. We have no money coming in until JOsh gets paid from Security Abstract and then most goes to pay Mom and Dad back. I have like six medications I have to pick up on Friday. So pray more money comes in. I want to thank all of you who commet on my journal you know who you are. Jenna is still tired she has and abnormal thyroid that explains why she has been having chest pain and so tired. The play is friday, Saturday and Sunday I hope I have the money to go to it. I guess I need to remember that the Lord will provide.
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It must be so frustrating for both you and your husband, to be strapped financially, especially with an occasion like your birthday to celebrate. I like being fussed over, too. I definitely think it's valid for you to speak up to your aquatic therapist. She should be treating you with respect and patience. Unfortunately everyone is not as kind as you are. Have a very happy birthday!
carolineleigh
H sounds like an express route to chucklesville!!! I suspect that he is just 'oed off @ his presant situation??? I learned early in life that it aint no sin to save $ Most ppl dont. Your b-day is the same day yearjy & H could have prepared better. I know lotsa ppl like that, they cant stand to have a $ in thier pocket. I keep 6 months needs @ hand
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chipchip
I feel your pain, I also like to have a big deal made out of my birthday and would have been crushed by what your husband did, but don't internalize it because it's his issue. That would be enough for me not to want to care about his special day even though it's vindictive. I am sorry for your physical pain, I too am in pain and it's no easy way to live. I too am limited by lack of funds and it's frustrated me to no end. It's a damned if I do and damned if I don't feeling and your not alone with those feelings. I hope things get better for you and I trust in time that they will.
calmpaal
First your leg and back may be bothering you because of the added stress of the inconsiderate act of your husband. I would have to say, at the right time, "honey, I am aware that you feel you could not buy me anything for my birthday, but there are so many things you could have done to make me feel special. If you did not know it, my birthday is one of the things that is very important to me and I need you to acknowledge it and make me feel special. You do have a year to save some money and find a way to help me celebrate my life. My birthday does not change at all, it is the same every year and next year I would appreciate you being more considerate of me as I know I am of you and this family. Thank you and I love you. As far as your aquatic therapist, what ever she is doing to make you feel bad tell her to stop. I have learned that if you look at someone and say, "i do not want to be talked to that way or treated that way so please stop. It works. Things will get bette.
freely
I agree with freely. Stress (ie: husbands comment) always seems to make it harder to deal with the pain. I went through that this year with my S/O and I told him it would have meant the world to me to get even a $5 gift, something small just to show he cared. I go out of my way to make people in my life feel special on their birthdays, including him, even though I am constantly broke. How would he feel if you said that to him about his birthday? Sorry he was so inconsiderate. Happy Birthday sweetie!!! Love and hugs! Peggy
Tryingtolaugh
Breakfast in bed , a single rose and a mushy card - some gentle massage and good lovin'. That would do the trick for me. Plus, I definitely should have someone else wait on me all day and cook my favorite supper. Hurt too bad to go out, anyway!
Love, Vee
virgila