freakyfest's Journal

 Well eveyone  MOnday is here. Oh dear on my..I though I would die. I am out of two of my medications soon to be four and I have not a clue how I am going to get them. Ofcourse they have to be important ones like my Abilify, My Geodone, Januvia and Lyrica. All ones I really really need.  So either I sell something which I don't have anything left to sell or  I beg money from my in laws. The amount is probably going to be 120.00.    Plus Josh is out of some of his meds.

          Why does this always happen on a Monday?  I know I have said or performed this song and dance before. But it is a common theme. I guess I will have to look into companies that help you with your medication. I also have my doctors appointment today with my G.P.      I think I will have her raise my Lyrica.   I may also have her put me on somthing for smoking or to help me quit. And or I don't know I will just have to talk to her. I wonder if it is time to put me on something for my anxiety. The passion flower is still helping but it also is taking more of it to make it work.   The Guy at the health food store says I should go off of it for a week because I have probably built up a tolerance for it. I dont' think I could last a week with out it. So I will just bring all this up with my doctor at my appointment today. 

Quitting smoking is not working very well. I  wonder if I am trying to quit to soon. I don't know. I guess today is not a good judge of it because I dont' have some of my meds yet so I am having a panic attack about that. So if you can keep me in your prayers I would greatly appriciate it.  I am very thankfull I have you all in my life. I hope you can read my journal I used a different font. God Bless love you all.