freakyfest's Journal

Wow I have had so many lows and highs today  and the last few days taht I don't know if I am coming or going. Lets see the Van the engine might be totally shot. We had one mechanic look at it and we are going to have another mechanic look at it on Monday. Mean while I will not have a vehicle to drive. Josh's parents are letting us borrow their little truck but I don't know how to drive stick. I don't know if I can deal with all this, I always drive. See I got my license late in my life part of it was my husband being a control freak, part of it was hard instructors and some of it was embarassment. So then ever since I have gotten it I love to drive. Sometimes when I am feeling down I will just crank on my Cd player and go for a drive. If we can't get the van fixed up because it is too much or we can't afford to buy a used one then we will fix up the Toyota. We were going to give that one to Jenna but now we are  or might have to just help her buy her first vehicle. My pain has been up and down depending on how much I stand or sit. Money should be here by Thursday. We made an appointment to get the two dogs in for their shots. Then we will get all the cats in. We decided we are going to get the other two females fixed. Then we might have all the cats going outside. Oh well I guess we will see what happens. We are going to pay up Joey's school for a year and go a head and buy supplies. We will have to borrow more money so that I can get my geodone. I can't go with out that or I will end up in the hospital. The rest of my medicine can wait until Thursday or Friday.