freakyfest's Journal

well it is almost four thirty here. I expect my husband and son back by atleast 6 O"clock.

  They both went to see my daughters play. I saw it on Friday. She and the rest did such a good job. IT is Agatha Christy's "The Hollow". It is a murder /mystery/romance. Joey wants to try out for the next play. His sister doesn't want him to because acting is her thing but Joey has a lot of unused talent when it comes to acting as well. At church today I had pastor and Deb pray over me. Pastor said that I shouldn't "own" my disease. I should go about each day as if it was not there. I can see what they mean. They said that what is going up in my head can affect me physicaly which I all ready knew that. Deb said that any hate, jealousy , bitterness , etc in my heart can cause my physical ailments and that the devil is using them as a door way to get into my heart and affect my health. I think I understand all that, not sure i believe all of that but it does make some sense. So Deb prayed with me and I got rid of some bitterness toward my brother. I think he sexually molested me as a child. He certainly tried getting me to have intercourse with him. I block out some memories that is why I don't know for sure. A friend of mine has a life couch don't know if I can afford that right now but it sure would help me out. We should get Josh's IRA in by thursday. So we will catch up on bills. Take out money for the church and do some repairs around the house. We will proabably put some into savings so we have money to fall back on if we need to. Well that is all for now.