It's Been a While
September 15, 2009 8:38am
It's been a while since I have need to check in with DS. However Latley I have been feeling bogged down with all too familiar emotions again. I …
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NCap23 
1:43am, September 21, 2009
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About Me
NCap23
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About Me
Hi Everybody, My name is Nina. I am 22.I am depressed but hopeful Always. My Father is an alcoholic and i am trying to better understand my whole family situation. He left us for another family, Had an affair with a married woman and they have a 4 year old son together now...he is now living with her. The Divorce was finalized in March '09. I have now 2 older brothers ( one of which has Cerebral Palsy and seizures who I help my Ma take care of 24/7) and 3 younger brothers... I am trying so hard to make this life a good one for them now that Dad is Gone that I fear I have lost my role as Big Sis and have subconsiusly stepped into Dad's empty shoes.I think that has changed and somewhat ruined our relationships. Confused about a lot of things and looking for happiness again.I am a very very positive person. Always looking for the better in the situation. However sometimes I just get so sad for the world. Want to find and belive in LOVE again. Right now I have a difficult time understanding why people get married.
Hi Everybody, My name is Nina. I am 22.I am depressed but hopeful Always. My Father is an alcoholic and i am trying to better understand my whole family situation. He left us for another family, Had an affair with a married woman and they have a 4 year old son together now...he is now living with her. The Divorce was finalized in March '09. I have now 2 older brothers ( one of which has Cerebral Palsy and seizures who I help my Ma take care of 24/7) and 3 younger brothers... I am trying so hard to
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Interests
I love it all. I find Life in its enitiry AMAZING. love love love music. Its like a higher power. Love laughing whenever I can.Its even greater when I can make others Laugh though. Like drawing but havent in a long while. I go to art stores like once every 2 months and by supplies in prep for my starting it up again. I miss it. Lookin for the inspiration. I like to write songs and poems and try to record my dreams.Reading ..mostly non-fiction. Like watching reality shows that i can observe human Bx. I love people. I love helping others.I work at a home for adults who are mentally/physically disabled. They change my life. They are incredible people who lack certain everyday abilities... but GIVE SO MUCH. I cannot help but often keep to myself though. I can be paranoid about others views on me however i have gotten a lot better recently. Have many things i want to accomplish and explore in my life time. I wanna See it ALL!
I love it all. I find Life in its enitiry AMAZING. love love love music. Its like a higher power. Love
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Journal
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Proud
July 21, 2009 10:31am
So I have been doing pretty well for myself.
Since Easter I have lost 43 pounds and i am still going strong!
I am excited for the change and the …
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Happy You Year
November 25, 2008 11:48am
Dear Pru...It is a new year and a New Me. I am all about keeping my commintments this year. To Others and to Myself. I am eating healthy.... back at …
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Fallin' Down.
April 29, 2008 9:37pm
Dear Prudence...
I have not been especially enthusiastic about anything lately. Other than the fact that i am now and again an employee at a …
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My Life ...UGHHH
March 28, 2008 2:33pm
Dear Pru,
I need a good cry. I hven't been able to lately. I am Crawling in my skin and I feel on edge. I feel bad for the person …
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Dear NCap,
You asked for a hug and you got it!!!! lollollol Eric
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From Shaner
October 29
Hey you, it's been quite a while, but I thought I would check in. I hope things are going great in your world. God Bless you.
Little Love
Sending you some love, just want you to be happy and live your life. I need to become more independent. I guess we both do. Loveyou, Mom
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From Shaner
November 25, 2008
Well, here's the first of many hugs from me. How well did you read my profile. I am a personal trainer, so if you need any advice/info on working out, please ask me. God Bless you.
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Little Love
I love you , too. You are the best daughter in the whole world. I could have never gotten this far without you. Someday I'll be able to support myself on my own but until then I am glad you have my back supporting me. ( p.s. go get the receiving blanket) LOL
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Goals
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Support Groups
Close Fitness Goals
Type: Maintain a workout scheduleI love working out, i really do, It is just so difficult for me to go to the gym . i lack motivation and have for so many years now. i need to my insecurities aside and just go.
Treatments
- 6 Week Body Makeover Too Soon to Tell
- I just received the program and i start Monday
- Elliptical Trainer Working / Worked
Close Depression
Treatments
- Positive Thinking Working / Worked
- Alway Helps.
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- It Was okay. I always knew what they were telling me before they actually told me.So I stopped going.
- Reading Working / Worked
- A Book that i just recently finished...The Way of the Peaceful Warior by Dan Millman has Changed my Life forever. if you happen to see it in the library or the bookstaore...I strongly recommend it.
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- Staying open with the ones who you are closest with is the best way for Hope to Succeed. The one that know and love you the most will be most honest in helping you find your happiness.
- Writing Working / Worked
- Always feels like a weight has been lifted.It is a creative outlet that allows the voice inside my soul to be liberated from stress and anger and sadness and so forth.
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- Helped for a while. Realy would rather just do without out it so I took myself off it.
Open Families & Friends Of Addicts
My Dad is an Alcoholic and is very sick from his drinking.No longer lives at home. Refusees to go to ReHab.It is difficult to talk with him anymore. Its so sad and frustrating.
Treatments
- Al-Anon Working / Worked
- I was in 7th grade. Havent been to a meeting since. Helped me to learn more about the disease and its effects on the person.
- Patience Somewhat Helpful
- "patience is a virtue"..however, in this case you cannot wait any longer.. you need to state your peace and let them know how they are effecting your life and the need that you will not stand by them unless they are willing to cooperate and get the help they need to begin living again.
- Talking Working / Worked
- Always helps. Sometimes i feel worse unloading it on a friend though. Even though i know they are there to help, i also feel horrible sometimes for not being strong enough to just deal.
- Writing Working / Worked
- Writing is a hobby of mine that seems to always calm me down and deal with my issues in a creative fashion.
Open Cerebral Palsy
My Older brother has CP and requires care 24/7. He is the strongest person I know. He is My Rock. He is My Inspiration.
Open Stress Management
NCap23 hasn’t entered any details for this support group.Open Children Of Divorced Parents
My Parents Have been separated now 2 years and there finalizing divorce the beginning of December.
Open Caregivers
My older brother suffers MR/DD, a Severe Seizure Disorder, and Respiatory Problems.He requires 24 Hour care. Growing up I have always help my Ma take care of him. He is an inspiration to me...He Gives me Hope for Life. My Ma is an AmAZiNg HuMaN BeInG and the STRONGEST PERSON I've known...She has been such a loving mother and watching her care for my brother warms your heart in trying to imagine the Love.
Open Alcoholism
I cant have just one or two drinks. i need to black out before i stop.
