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DianeKay 
1:11pm, August 30, 2009
Hi all. Thank you all for your loving comments and your prayers. It will be two weeks tomorrow since we lost Zoe. My pain is easing some as I realize I did do all I could for him.
He was well loved and he knew it. Krystal is still hurting badly so please keep her in your prayers. She and Zoe were so close for a pet and its "mama". My youngest still says she misses him a lot too.
I went to the doctor for my quarterly check up and to get my lab results. Some good news and some a tad less good. My total cholesterol is real good...... down to 168 now. Under 200 is good. My bad cholesterol (the LDL) is very good. It was 77 and under 100 is good. My good
cholesterol (the HDL) is too low. It is only 33 and it should be at least 50. And my tryglycerides are still very high. It is 289 and should be less than 150. My iron is still very
low even though I am taking 130mg a day. Doctor says my gut is not absorbing it and that I really should be getting outpatient iron infusions but that it can be rather expensive so without insurance forget it. She said orange juice is suppose to help the gut absorb iron so she suggested I start taking the pills with orange juice. Am doing that so we will see if that helps. She is a tad concerned about my b/p as it has been reading high with my wrist cuff at home. But every time I go to the office it is very good. So it could just be the cuff. Will have to start taking it the old way at home and see if that makes a difference.
Becca and I raked our little yard this afternoon. It may be a small yard but it was FULL of TONS of leaves. We have a small wooded area behind the trailer court where many of us
dump our leaves. She and I took several trips there to dump the leaves. As a matter of fact
we dumped TEN trash cans full of leaves! Boy are we sore and tired this evening. But it felt good to be outside working together on a project and breathing in some nice fresh air.
It was perfect weather here today for leaf raking.
God bless you all with a great week end.
Love & hugs,
Diane
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Hi all. Thank you all for your loving comments and your prayers. It will be two weeks tomorrow since we lost Zoe. My pain is easing some as I realize I did do all I could for him.
He was well loved and he knew it. Krystal is still hurting badly so please keep her in your prayers. She and Zoe were so close for a pet and its "mama". My youngest still says she misses him a lot too.
I went to the doctor for my quarterly check up and to get my lab results. Some good news and some a tad less good. My total cholesterol is real good...... down to 168 now. Under 200 is good. My bad cholesterol (the LDL) is very good. It was 77 and under 100 is good. My good
cholesterol (the HDL) is too low. It is only 33 and it should be at least 50. And my tryglycerides are still very high. It is 289 and should be less than 150. My iron is still very
low even though I am taking 130mg a day. Doctor says my gut is not absorbing it and that I really should be getting outpatient iron infusions but that it can be rather expensive so without insurance forget it. She said orange juice is suppose to help the gut absorb iron so she suggest I start taking the pills with orange juice. Am doing that so we will see if that helps. She is a tad concerned about my b/p as it has been reading high with my wrist cuff at home. But every time I go to the office it is very good. So it could just be the cuff. Will have to start taking it the old way at home and see if that makes a difference.
Becca and I raked our little yard this afternoon. It may be a small yard but it was FULL of TONS of leaves. We have a small wooded area behind the trailer court where many of us
dump our leaves. She and I took several trips there to dump the leaves. As a matter of fact
we dumped TEN trash cans full of leaves! Boy are we sore and tired this evening. But it felt good to be outside working together on a project and breathing in some nice fresh air.
It was perfect weather here today for leaf raking.
God bless you all with a great week end.
Love & hugs,
Diane
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Diane, I'm so glad that you are starting to feel a little better now about Zoe. My Aunt lost her son awhile back and he was very young. He had a brain anurism (probably spelled that wrong) Anyway she blamed herself for so long until she finally realized one day that God is in control and that He doesn't make mistakes. It was very hard for her not to feel guilty because she had let her son be an organ donor and she thought that if she hadn't of done that they would have tried harder to save his life at the hospital. Only God knows the answers to some things but we can be sure that He cares about who and what we care about and when we get to heaven we will be re-united with all of our loved ones, humans and pets.
That leaf raking is hard work but I'm glad you got out on a pretty day and got some yard work therapy. It always helps me to feel better too. I bet your yard looks very nice. Hugs! Annie
I hate to be a drag. I am usually upbeat but I can't shake the feeling of guilt for not saving Zoe. Krystal is still so hurt and heartbroken over losing him. We all are. So hard to believe he is gone. Many may say, "It was only a cat." but we do not feel that way. He was a loving special member of our family and I feel guilty over his loss. He was only 8 yrs. old.
Just very blue today.
Hugs to all.
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Any one who love cats and dogs and have them and love them will grieve over their death just as they would for a person. The grief is much shorter especially if they get another one.
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Don't beat yourself up over Zoe. From what you described it was his time to go. He's much better off now. Look into getting another. It took me a few months to finally get another dog to replace my Girlee. It was a good move for me. Take care. Joe
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Hugs to you Diane. Losing a pet is like losing a member of the family.
It will take time for all of you to heal. You should think of getting another one.
Hope you have a good week.
Dianne
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Of course you are grieving over your lose Diane, but please don't carry that guilt. Life is based on God's time, not ours. Donna
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"pets put pawprints on our hearts"....so true. I'm so sorry you feel so tortured by this, but i completely understand. It will take time for the sorrow to ease up for sure. In the meantime i would suggest trying to think of happy memories of your pet everytime you think of him. Its hard, but like i said, it does get easier with time. I was curious if you have a memorial spot or anything for him at home?
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big hugs for you and Krystal. you did what you could diana so don;t feel guilty. sometimes we don;t know why but we all lost our pets. time will help heel the both of you... plant a nice plant for zoe and know thats him. maybe that will help you... prayers for both. gail
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Thank you all for your loving support. I am finally letting loose of the guilt. I know I loved him and took good care of him. We will make it . Will take my Krystal a bit longer as he was her baby and best friend. I hurt because she hurts. Love you and appreciate your kind words of encouragement.
Hugs to all.
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Diane, I grieved over my last dog for 5yrs. even though I got another dog the day after she passed away. I had terrible guilt over her passing because if I had taken her to the vet sooner she would probably have lived another year maybe two. The new dog I got is a wonderful dog and now I feel so guilty about spending 5 yrs. grieving over the old dog instead of enjoying the new one to the fullest. and if the other dog hadn't of passed away I would never have gotten the wonderful dog I have now. Guilt comes with the teritory. It takes a very special kind of a person to be able to deal with all the grief and guilt associated with having pets because they don't live long enough. It's not uncommon to grive over a pet just as you would a person, and maybe even more so. By the way the dog that I grieved over for 5yrs. had a uterous infection and because I didn't get her to the vet fast enough she had heart failure during surgery. Our pets weather alive and with us or gone on to be with the Lord in heaven do not want us to feel bad. Zoe is not going to remember any of the pain or suffering where he is now in heaven. Love is eternal, pain is not. I know you are feeling a terrible loss but please try not to get too far into the guilt thing, it can make you feel really sick and I know Zoe doesn't want that to happen to you or Krystal. They want us to remember the happy times and what a blessing and joy they were to us, if they made us happy then they fulfilled their lifes destiny. They try so hard to make us happy so don't forget about all of that. It was just his time to go, you and Krystal didn't make him get sick. Even knowing all of what I've said may not make you feel any better because like I said, it just comes with the territory and all of us who have lost pets have gone through exactly the same thing you describe. Even if you had taken him to the vet sooner they probably would have kept him there in that strange place and he could have passed away there. Even vets can't save animals when it is their time to go. At least Zoe was with you when he passed and very much comforted by your presence and not all alone in some cage in a strange place. You did the best you could and you and Krystal were wonderful parents to Zoe. God bless you Dear. I'm praying for you that God will help you get through this pain of loss of a very much loved member of your family. You'll both see Zoe again, try to look ahead and not look back. Zoe is wating for you on the other side in the next life, the eternal one. Love and Hugs ~ Annie
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This is awesome Annie. Thank you very much.
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Do get you another kitty~~It helps when loves takes over again..Love ya
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