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msgbruin45 
Struggling with my unwanted visitor, not winning ......but don't count me out yet !
Thursday, April 10, 2008 |
Thursday, April 10, 2008 |
On January 1st , 2008 , I was forced to open my door and let in a horrible visitor , with a load of suitcases .
The suitcases were filled with pain , despair ,tears and loneliness and the visitor brought enough to last a lifetime .
The visitor was very rude and moved my suitcases which contained Happiness, Laughter and Joy to the back of the closet and his suitcases are soo big that I no longer can see mine.
My suitcases were really nice , bright color and I enjoyed travelling with them .
His suitcases are raggedy , worn , have lost their color and they stink !
I can't evict him , I can't lock him out , I can't even ignore him . He is, by all acounts the most unwanted visitor on this earth and he is locked and loaded and staying at my house .
Which one of his suitcases do I open today ? Does it really matter ? There is nothing good in any of them .
Who is he and who sent him ?
I struggle everyday to at least see my suitcases ,know that they are still in my closet and that one day I will move them to the front of my closet , then on another day I will take them out of the closet and finally pack them and take a wonderful trip .
I must find a way to get him out ! I need to get to my suitcases and start dusting them off !
I want my happiness , laughter and joy back !
I will find a way to get him out !
Have a blessed day
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Wow!!! I am amazed at how well what you said descibes our lifes after the deaths of our husbands. It has been longer for me than you, but my "real" suitcases with bright colors are still in the back of my closet. I just got home from a trip, but our unwanted visitor went everywhere with me. He was in my bedroom when I woke up and is here still!
I want my joy, laughter and happiness back too. I don't know if that is possable though, because when Sam died he took it with him...
jmk1973
Thanks
I believe we will get it back , but I know that we have to fight our way back .
A big HUG for you !
msgbruin45
Truely inspirational; I wish I could get rid of those smelly suitcases, too. I know my husband would want me to get out the bright ones; I hope with all my might that he helps me fight like a vixon to get them back because hopefully that's what he wants for me, too.
trinilisa
Well said! You just said how we all feel! i so want my heart to feel happy and alive again! hugs!!!
TiKibell
I too know that vistor and I sure do hate him. Everyday he's here with me, tearing at my heart.
How do we get rid of him? How do we tell him thats' enough?
Maybe if we all pary together we will all be able to beat him one day......Hugs and friendship going your way...Stella
sjg
It is a fight and your analogy was right on. God Bless you and keep you safe. Thank you for your kind words that always seem to find me when I need them most!
Big bear hugs, and prayers for peace, laughter and joy,
Sandi
repangel911
I hope you do find moments of happiness and joy amongst the never-ending despair and loneliness. Thinking of you.
pneylan
What an interesting analogy.....perhaps removing one suitcase at a time will help.....
BamaFlash
You will find a way to push through to what you must to get your life back on a normal track sweetie.
I have been there and back,its in your power to over ride and take back yourself again.You can do it remember push through!!
Rachel
katrachel