terh's Journal

Well all in all I am doing pretty well.  Have been feeling some energy, starting to look forward to the next day and doing something, anything.  Haven't felt like this in a very long time.  I feel happiness overwhelm me most of the time.  I still feel tired all the time but it seems manageable most of the time.  I definately have spring fever and want so badly to walk around in the yard and feel the sun on my face, plant things, get my garden ready.  OOOOHHHH Im killing myself here.  I have found appreciation in so many things in my life.  I have stresses and anxiety and depression but it does weight me down any more, and it seems to get less and less even on my mind.  Don't know how to explain it and have been on meds for quite some time and I know they wouldn't take it all away, so I must be growing.  One thing that I find helpful is releasing stress that doesn't belong to me and even those that do I try to see that looking at it as if it will be there from time to time regardless helps eliminate the stress so heavily and it helps to see things more clearly, but this is surely in practice stages.  Hopefully will get stronger, am sure it will.  I wish I could give just a little of my happiness to others to feel to give them hope and a taste of what it is like to feel that way so they could aim for it in their own lives.