kidd2's Journal

Good Morning all, although it is not a good morning for me. I am feeling a little depressed today. I had a bad day yesterday with my spouse and it has carried over to today. He tells me that he is sorry and that he loves me, but he just doesn't get it. He thinks that I should be able to do things as well as any capable person, but doesn't seem to get that I can't, after 17 years of this you'd think he would. Its his looks of dissapproval when he loses patience with me that really hurt. I find this quite insensitive. It doesn't help that it is winter, snowing and very cold. I hate winter. It is very hard for me to get through snow and over ice. I only go out when I have to so I get cabin fever often which in turn makes me kind of depressed. I also think that I suffer somewhat with SAD. I love the sun and when I don't see it for a few days, I get a little down. It helps that I can write about what i'm feeling in here because I don't seem to be able to make my husband understand why I feel like this sometimes. He is a good man and I know he would do anything for me, but after all he is a man. No offence intended.