Relieved that its all over for now...
May 27, 2008 5:43pm
I'm moved into my new place and I couldn't be happier. My family means well, God bless 'em, but they stress me out! I had court today …
Catch23 
7:00pm, December 30, 2008
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About Me
Catch23
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About Me
I suffer from depression/anxiety. It has impaired me from finishing my bachelor's degree as well as kept me from moving on with my life, in general. I love music, film, and all sorts of art forms. I'm an aspiring schoolg psychologist and I have a unique gift to help others (ironic I know). There's history of addiction on my family and as of this posting I am 15 weeks sober and counting. Trying to sort out my life and get it back on track and moving forward again.
I suffer from depression/anxiety. It has impaired me from finishing my bachelor's degree as well as kept me from moving on with my life, in general. I love music, film, and all sorts of art forms. I'm an aspiring schoolg psychologist and I have a unique gift to help others (ironic I know). There's history of addiction on my family and as of this posting I am 15 weeks sober and counting. Trying to sort out my life and get it back on track and moving forward again.
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I've decided to move out...
April 20, 2008 11:03pm
I had an argument last Sunday with my parents. They found out about the speeding ticket and were pissed I didn't tell them about it. The first …
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This goal isn't working out so well.
April 4, 2008 8:59am
Seeing as I've never truly been happy except for when I'm sitting in front of a video game or computer screen (sad isn't it?) whis goal …
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163 days sober, boy this is getting tough...
April 4, 2008 8:56am
This is going to be short, but man I've just had a lot of stresses in my life between work, family, my OWN issues, money, school, getting an atp. …
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Thursday, February 28, 2008
February 28, 2008 1:47pm
I'm 127 days sober as of today. Things are starting to get harder as my life is becoming more stressful and I get more agitated and frustrated …
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thank you for your comment and adviceee-you're very right and ill have to accept alot of things to change.. i appreciate it
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Hello. I read your comment and I thank you for it. I have resolved things and I feel good. Another member of A.A. told me to just take the guy aside and talk to him. It worked out well. He now has a new understanding of things, and I have a new A.A. frend. Thanks again, James
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Close Depression
Treatments
- Lexapro Not Working
- It made me feel emotionally numb, tired all the time, and actually increased suicidal thoughts.
- Meditation Considering
- Limited, but it seems to be looking into, if I can find the patience.
- Psychotherapy Working / Worked
- My therapist is wonderful, I've been seeing him for about 6 months now, I've never walked away from a session dissatisfied and it has helped me vocalize some of the things I write and decipher their true meanings.
- Wellbutrin Somewhat Helpful
- It has relieved most of my feelings of depression and anxiety, but I've seemed to replace them with anger and frustration.
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- I've been writing since I was little, because its been the only outlet where I know I was safe to say whatever is on my mind.
Close Alcoholism
Treatments
- AA Meetings Considering
- Not too long ago I had my first real desire to drink since I quit. If the desires become overwhelming, I may need to seek out more help than I can give myself.
- Cold Turkey Working / Worked
- So far so good, I'm lucky to have supportive people around me.
- Willpower Working / Worked
- I've been around situations with alcohol readily available and have been offered it on numerous occassions since I quit. I am happy to say I had little trouble politely saying "no".
Open Anxiety
Like many people, my anxiety works in tandem with my depression against me. All it takes is for one bad thing to happen, big or small, and it will remind me of another time someting similar happened or gave me a similar feeling. This becomes what I call an "anxiety snowball" as one thought leads to the next, eventually adding up and making me feel overwhlemed. After using anantidepressant medication my anxiety/depression seems to have been replaced my frustration and anger.
Treatments
- Lexapro Not Working
- Made me emotionally numb, made me sleep all the time and increased suicidal thoughts.
- Meditation Considering
- It's worth looking into if I can find the patience for it.
Open Anger Management
After being medicated for several months on antidepressants for depression/anxiety, I'm finding its been replaced with anger and frustration. Sometimes I've even been physically destructive with my belongings and I do not like who I am becoming as this continues. My therapist says its a good thing in that this will help drive me out of the stagnant state that I'm in and motivate me towards my goals. I don't want this to endager myself or anybdoy else in the process.
Open Back Pain
3 years ago I strained a back muscle working at FedEx Ground. They paid for my physical therapy but i've still had to take care of it ever since. It's recently started to bother me again and I'm currently seeking treatment for it and hopefully it won't keep me out of work too long.
Treatments
- Heat Too Soon to Tell
- Can't find where i put our heating pad but once I do I'll update!
- Ibuprofen Not Working
- Most pain medicines do not seem to work with this particular injury, though I am not sure why.
- Physical Therapy Too Soon to Tell
- Recently was coached on new exercises I can do to help keep my back in better shape.
- Stretching Working / Worked
- This has worked wonders in the past and has even allowed me to be able to work out at the gym like I used to.
- TENS Working / Worked
- Just started it at the chiropractor yesterday and am going back today. It has helped tremendously.
Open College Stress
Due to my difficulties with addiction and anxiety/depression, I've had many setbacks throughout my college career. I only have 19 hours left to complete my bachleor's in psychology and aim to finish that as soon as possible.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Too Soon to Tell
- Haven't been back in school since I started therapy.
Open Families & Friends Of Addicts
There isa strong history of addiction on one side of my family. My grandfather drank, my grandmother smokes, my uncle is addicted to crack/cocaine, and one of my parents is a hardcore alcoholic. I've struggled with addiction to alcohol and video games and have stayed sober but am still working on the gaming thing.
Treatments
- Psychotherapy Somewhat Helpful
- Therapy can't change my home situation anymore than I can, it only gives me a vocal outlet in which to discuss and express my feelings.
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- Writing is always a welcome outlet for me as I am a much better writer than I am a spekaer. I often find it hard to say the right thing that adequatelyy explains what I mean.
Open Insomnia
I have had trouble sleeping for as long as I can remember. I'm a night owl and usually operate on only 5-6 hours of sleep or less on average. Sometimes I don't even bother trying to sleep and hope that I'll be tired enough the next night to get back on track.
Treatments
- Meditation Considering
- As I said before, if I can find the patience for it it's definitely worth looking into.
- Music Working / Worked
- I used to listen to music put my computer keeps erasing my playlists for some reason and its gotten tiring to have to remake them all the time.
- Reading Somewhat Helpful
- When I don't become distracted with other things reading works very well.
Open Sleep Apnea
I suffer from insomnia, I only have bouts of apnea when I go through days of no sleep so that when I do sleep I often awake to my heart beating rapidly and trying to catch my breath.
