Still need friends!!!
June 8, 2009 7:42pm
Wow, as I re-read my journal entries, I'm amazed at all that I've survived.
It's probably been about a year since I've left …
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4:18pm, September 27, 2009
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About Me
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About Me
I'm an adventure-loving, explorative creature, who's been kept caged too long by my own anxieties and negative people in my life. I know I used to love to laugh, to kid around, giggle, act silly, be goofy. I used to rollerblade at the beach, dream of romantic escapades while watching the sunset, dream of my house in the country with rolling fields of wildflower. And always me in a long, flowing white dress...
I'm an adventure-loving, explorative creature, who's been kept caged too long by my own anxieties and negative people in my life. I know I used to love to laugh, to kid around, giggle, act silly, be goofy. I used to rollerblade at the beach, dream of romantic escapades while watching the sunset, dream of my house in the country with rolling fields of wildflower. And always me in a long, flowing white dress...
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Interests
My Pups!!! Singing Gardening Traveling Fine Dining Arts & Crafts -beading -painting -fixing up homes -building white picket fences -knitting
My Pups!!! Singing Gardening Traveling Fine Dining Arts & Crafts -beading -painting -fixing up homes
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Need friends & help
March 25, 2009 10:24pm
I'm having a hard time with my social anxiety, so much so that I'm scared to get online at times.
I really need a friend and someone I …
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Update on my abusive relationship...
May 9, 2008 7:27pm
This is the latest escapade that was the last straw. The cops came out and guess what.....Did NOTHING, except for put the living fear into …
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Hurting....real bad.
May 9, 2008 7:24pm
Hi,
I haven't been on here, mostly because things were going well, and I had MUCh stuff to catch up on. I scrambled to do as much as I …
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My little girl.....(journal entry LONG overdue.....)
April 19, 2008 9:05am
Sheena died a year ago this February, and I haven't written down a thing about her. A friend just elicited it from me today, and I'll …
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I just want to give you a hug.
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Thank you. You are a sweetheart! hugs Laura
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The last line should have said YOU HAVEN'T GONE THIS FAR TO STOP NOW. Sorry for my silly mistake.
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Well Done
You ARE strong. And you will get the help that you need and deserve. As your "Big Brother" I will make sure of that. Have faith in yourself (and some faith in me) and we'll get through this. You have gotten this far to stop now.
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hello, Hope your doing well. Janette (elainebr) will be in contact with you real soon in regards to your grief mentor. She is a very nice lady. I am still here if you want to chat. Traci
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Close Food Allergies
Type of allergy: Other FoodsI had to find out the hard way that my chronic sinus/lung infections were from FOOD sensitivities, mainly due to Candida overgrowth from being on multiple rounds of antibiotics! When I came back from Europe ill(I was 16) my dr's couldn't figure anything out other than antibiotics for 8-9 months. It was years later,(21) that my Dad stumbled onto a Naturopath, who simply told us to avoid dairy! I'm tired of this long, uphill battle to rebuild my immune system, and found MANY more sensitivities!
Treatments
- Avoid Certain Foods / Chemicals Working / Worked
- If I COMPLETELY eliminate wheat,dairy, soy, yeast, etc, my sinusus stay clear!
- Washing Somewhat Helpful
- The cleanses always help my digestive tract get going and I lose weight probably stored gunk!
Close Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder
Treatments
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- Helped at the time, I believe you have to maintain the teachings in order for it to remain effective.
- EMDR Somewhat Helpful
- They say it works, it might help the trauma from getting worse.
- Talking Somewhat Helpful
- It definitely does help to talk to others and get it out.
Open Insomnia
I haven't been able to get a good night's sleep since I was a baby. It got really bad in College, when I was prescribed Amitryptaline.
Treatments
Open Self-Injury
I used to do this in my 20's, but found that I am hurting so much again lately, that I've started cutting again. It's scary that I see myself getting worse.
Open Physical & Emotional Abuse
I have been a long-standing survivor of abuse, from when I was a little kid, progressing to all my destructive relationships with men. Even to this day, when I thought I recognized the pattern, and chose a healthier person.
Treatments
- Leave Working / Worked
- It is heart-breaking at first, but I have managed to survive physically. As far as emotionally and spiritually, I can't say, as I feel dead inside.
Open Brain / CNS Tumors
Type: OtherI have a lot of these symptoms mentioned in the discussions, and have been told by my naturopath to get checked out for a cyst or something on my pituitary!! But my doctors don't take me seriously. I need to know what to do.
Open Depression
Type: Clinical (Major) Depressionto get support & make friends to ease the lonliness
Treatments
- Celexa Not Working
- elevated my anxiety level
- Cognitive Behavioral Therapy Somewhat Helpful
- too stressful for me to be in a confined room with someone looking at me.
- Cymbalta Not Working
- too expensive
- Effexor Not Working
- elevated my anxiety level
- Elavil Working / Worked
- this definitely helps my insomnia, and I've noticed that I does help my depression & anxiety as well. It makes me groggy, which I Do NOT like !!! :((
- Electroconvulsive therapy Working / Worked
- Would like to have this done again. I think it's time my brain needs a re-booting
- Meditation Working / Worked
- Paxil Working / Worked
- Positive Thinking Somewhat Helpful
- Helps when I have the energy to deal with my thoughts. Too draining....
- Prozac Not Working
- too many side effects
- Psychotherapy Not Working
- Most of it really sucked, because the sessions were always so nerve-wracking for me. I don't go anymore, and I feel SO much better at least knowing that I don't HAVE to go.
- Seroquel Not Working
- yucky! made me feel like a vegetable!!!
- Support from Friends & Family Somewhat Helpful
- My family is no longer supporting me emotionally, but I've found that having a loving, positive support group works WONDERS (I would like to make a friend!!:))
- Trazodone Somewhat Helpful
- helped my insomnia more
- Wellbutrin Not Working
- didn't work at all
- Writing Somewhat Helpful
- This does help to get things off my chest, but can't when I'm in terrible shape.
- Zoloft Working / Worked
- helped my anxiety as well.
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