childish outburst
February 3, 2009 10:06am
I DON' WANNA.
there.
now that I've got that out of my system... back to work.
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LizzyG
11:13pm, March 8, 2009
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About Me
LizzyG
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About Me
I'm a senior in high school in upstate New York. I'm crazy involved in my school's music department, but writing is more my passion. My oldest brother Josh, who was a helocopter pilot in the Navy, died in a helo wreck on January 17th, leaving behind a huge, grieving family that I don't know how to deal with.
I'm a senior in high school in upstate New York. I'm crazy involved in my school's music department, but writing is more my passion. My oldest brother Josh, who was a helocopter pilot in the Navy, died in a helo wreck on January 17th, leaving behind a huge, grieving family that I don't know how to deal with.
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Close Bereavement - Teens
I just lost my oldest brother Josh this past January in a helocopter wreck. He was a helo pilot in the Navy. He was wonderful at just about everything he did, and he was the kind of person you always wanted around. He was only 30. I hadn't spoken to him since Christmas.
Treatments
- Keeping Busy Too Soon to Tell
- I just started going to school again yesterday.
- Music Somewhat Helpful
- I have some particular songs I listen to when I'm feeling down, and sometimes it works, but sometimes it doesn't. Plus, the effect tends to wear off after a couple thousand listens.
- Remembering Somewhat Helpful
- This works on my good days.
Close Bereavement
Type: Loss of a SiblingI just lost my oldest brother Josh two weeks ago in a helocopter wreck. He was a helo pilot in the Navy. He was wonderful at just about everything he did, and he was the kind of person you always wanted around. He was only 30. I hadn't spoken to him since Christmas.
Treatments
- Crying Working / Worked
- I need to cry more than I do. Mostly I don't let myself because there are always people around and I don't like to cry in front of others.
- Getting Angry Not Working
- This doesn't really work for me. I don't know who or what to be angry at, so it doesn't last very long, and underneath the anger the hurt is still there.
- Keeping Busy Somewhat Helpful
- sometimes this helps me forget, but sometimes I just feel like crap and have to keep doing stuff anyway.
- Music Working / Worked
- this is sooo helpful. I have some Gregorian chant, and some uplifting/comforting songs in various languages, and I have this rain CD and they all just comfort me so much.
- Poetry Too Soon to Tell
- I've only written two poems about this so far. Neither of them was very good. I think someone flicked the off switch on Poet Lizzy. Not sure when I'll see her again.
- Reading Working / Worked
- this is my escape. my main concern is that I might disappear into my books t
- Remembering Somewhat Helpful
- On my good days, this helps.
- Writing Working / Worked
- I vent. I vent vent vent vent vent. Thats mostly what my Journal on here is. I also have a diary.
- Physical Exercise Working / Worked
- Similar to keeping busy. Sometimes I feel better sometimes I feel like crap and I just force myself to move.
Open Internet Addiction
Internet addiction is very common in my family. I fell prey to it towards the end of third grade. Now, as I near the end of my senior year in high school, I'm doing better than I was -- I no longer spend 8 hours a day on the Internet -- but going online is usually the first thing I do when I get home from school and the last thing I do before bed.
Open Family Issues
I am the youngest of five. My mom went to live in California when I was eight. My family has been broken ever since.
Open Loneliness
Ever since I lost my brother, I have felt very alone. I'm trying to reach out these days, but now that I'm out of high school and not yet really in college, it's really hard to form and keep meaningful relationships. My best friend doesn't seem to want to get together with me, and I know she probably doesn't really consider me her best friend, but it's really hard because she's pretty much all I've got. So, yeah. I'm lonely.
