Journal Entry for July 11, 2008
now 83.8 - yeah me!!!!
I am currently a housewife, married to a solider and mother of one. I have only recently had my baby and got married.
I am currently a housewife, married to a solider and mother of one. I have only recently had my baby and got married.
now 83.8 - yeah me!!!!
Hiya, how you doing? Hope all is ok xx
hey how are you
thats good im glad your not having any nghtmares lets hope they stay away im doing ok had a bit of a blimp for a few weeks was really suicidal but come through it now what kind of dress are you getting
hi how are you
Apparently my triggers and deep issues with what happened to me, and with what was said to me during my rape caused a sever reaction to the words 'love' and 'joy' used in tandem with 'Dr'. My gut instrinct was as a 12 year old, not as the woman I hope to be today. I am embarrassed and ashamed at my insecurity. It offeneded yesterday, and apparently you were one whom was hurt by it. I am sorry. I am a deeply affected woman who is currently going through soem deeply distrubing things I cannot bear to discuss, my fear spoke for me, and I hate myself today. Please forgive me.
I was attacked when i was 16 years old by a man i was on a second date with. He was much older than me and i had lied about my age, i told him i was 18. He wanted to have sex on the first date but i told him i wanted to wait, which he seemed ok with, but on the second date he was not so ready to be patient. He took me to a pub and got me very drunk, he dorve me home but on the way i noticed we were going a different way. He took me to a wooded area where he beat and raped me.
I was diagnosed at the age of 11 with oral Crohns. I have spent many years fighting this and then at the age of 18 i was diagnosed with colonic and intestinal Crohn's. I have been given drug after drug after drug. Professor Walker-Smith from the Royal Free in London then put me on the Elemental Diet where you come off food altogether, drinking this horrible drink and then you introduce food slowly a group at a time. I found i could not tolerate dairy, which always triggered my Crohns.
Matthew was born on 08.08.07 at 08.06 in the morning ( i know good it wasn't the 6th of 6th at 6!!!) Anyway had a natural birth, 8 weeks after giving birth i got married and moved to Italy. I am married to a solider and we have just been posted to Naples.